ReDVsion
3rd October 2000, 00:14
Just being original with the title...
Anyways, I'm starving for anything remotely related to intellectual conversation (sorry pukkaboy, mod sucking up doesn't count here) b/c frankly, my school here has the most juvenile bunch of folks (tempted to say assholes) i've ever met. Even if the language barrier didn't exist, there's not one conversation that would spark up with these people that i'd want to be involved in. Not only am I actually LOSING my Spanish speaking skills, I am insulted IN ENGLISH on a daily basis by folks who's minds are probably the size of motherboard jumpers. I try to let it not get to me, but frankly it's so fucking frequent it's hard to ignore. This country is so sexually oriented it's not even funny/arousing. Novelty items (ever seen a boob-shaped coffee cup? They've got 'em), bulletin boards, TV (moreso than the US, if you can believe that), and especially conversation. Remember the juvenile thing? It apparently extends into adulthood around here (although it's slightly less apparent). Let me give you a rundown on the oh-so-short but oh-so-frequent conversation topics here:
He is gay. (at least 25 times a day)
He is lazy.
He jerks off
Fuck you.
Suck my dick (and other variations I won't mention here)
Some are in Spanish, some are in English. But imagine if you will getting 250 of these kinds of phrases every single day. You can't sleep in class b/c these idiots won't let you, you can't be pissed of b/c they're "just joking", and moreover, my parents just recently told me to start smiling more and looking happy b/c otherwise they'll think i'm unhappy.
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I'M NOT FUCKING HAPPY! I'M FUCKING PISSED! I'M FUCKING LONELY AND FUCKING TIRED EVERY DAY AND I HAVE TO DEAL WITH THESE FUCKING ASSHOLES ALL THE TIME AND THEN I GO HOME TO MY PARENTS AND WE ALL KNOW WHAT THAT'S LIKE! FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK!
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The sheer idea that i have to fucking act like a happy person appals me. Just today I was trying to get myself to faint by strangling myself with my shirt (it almost worked, BTW, you should try it if you have a really bad test or something. I also know how i'm going to commit suicide now). You think i'm a happy person? I'm starting to see where the columbine kids got the thought to go into their school and waste a few people. I feel like that ALL THE TIME now. Of course I won't really do all that stuff, but if you have access to guns it can be a thin line for some people (not me, and these folks here better be glad).
Fuck. I probably didn't say everything I wanted to but i'm stopping here to look at Jennifer Love Hewitt pictures. Damn she's gorgeous.
Anyways, I'm starving for anything remotely related to intellectual conversation (sorry pukkaboy, mod sucking up doesn't count here) b/c frankly, my school here has the most juvenile bunch of folks (tempted to say assholes) i've ever met. Even if the language barrier didn't exist, there's not one conversation that would spark up with these people that i'd want to be involved in. Not only am I actually LOSING my Spanish speaking skills, I am insulted IN ENGLISH on a daily basis by folks who's minds are probably the size of motherboard jumpers. I try to let it not get to me, but frankly it's so fucking frequent it's hard to ignore. This country is so sexually oriented it's not even funny/arousing. Novelty items (ever seen a boob-shaped coffee cup? They've got 'em), bulletin boards, TV (moreso than the US, if you can believe that), and especially conversation. Remember the juvenile thing? It apparently extends into adulthood around here (although it's slightly less apparent). Let me give you a rundown on the oh-so-short but oh-so-frequent conversation topics here:
He is gay. (at least 25 times a day)
He is lazy.
He jerks off
Fuck you.
Suck my dick (and other variations I won't mention here)
Some are in Spanish, some are in English. But imagine if you will getting 250 of these kinds of phrases every single day. You can't sleep in class b/c these idiots won't let you, you can't be pissed of b/c they're "just joking", and moreover, my parents just recently told me to start smiling more and looking happy b/c otherwise they'll think i'm unhappy.
[caps lock]
I'M NOT FUCKING HAPPY! I'M FUCKING PISSED! I'M FUCKING LONELY AND FUCKING TIRED EVERY DAY AND I HAVE TO DEAL WITH THESE FUCKING ASSHOLES ALL THE TIME AND THEN I GO HOME TO MY PARENTS AND WE ALL KNOW WHAT THAT'S LIKE! FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK!
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The sheer idea that i have to fucking act like a happy person appals me. Just today I was trying to get myself to faint by strangling myself with my shirt (it almost worked, BTW, you should try it if you have a really bad test or something. I also know how i'm going to commit suicide now). You think i'm a happy person? I'm starting to see where the columbine kids got the thought to go into their school and waste a few people. I feel like that ALL THE TIME now. Of course I won't really do all that stuff, but if you have access to guns it can be a thin line for some people (not me, and these folks here better be glad).
Fuck. I probably didn't say everything I wanted to but i'm stopping here to look at Jennifer Love Hewitt pictures. Damn she's gorgeous.