Girls are the downfall of society

[fwgx]

:( Likewise I don't know what to say
"I dont need you no more in this world I'll meet you in the next one, but don't be late"Have fun up there Josh

[missyob]

Originally posted by spunkbubble


It's shocking, I'm so obsessed with this song!!! Hopefully by Monay I'll have been paid and the first thing I'm doing is running into HMV and buying her second album!!! :D

I downloaded it yesterday :) It is good, but I liked the first one better. The song You make me sick, makes me dance all over the house!

~ Missy

[papadoc]

Missy dance till her feet get sore...
http://www.gifs.net/animate/dance10.gif
then Missy dance around the house some more.
:D

[spunkbubble]

Yeah, "You Make Me Sick" is fun! :)

What other music do you like?

My favourite artist of all time is Geri Halliwell! ;) But I also love Invertigo (Aussie band), Stabbing Westward, Linkin Park, 3 Doors Down, Robbie Williams and of course P!nk :D

[jns]

Music?
http://photo.felibarr.org/images/jns04.jpg
No. That's not music. :p

[spunkbubble]

I don't wanna meet on a lonely street, where the talk is cheap and the price is sweet, I'm not that girl, and you don't wanna see the other side of me so I'm gonna hit you off and I'm a-set you free before you fall too deep; don't fall too deep...

[jns]

I'm faaaalling...... :eek:

[spunkbubble]

Not for me :eek:

[jns]

Hmm. No. ;)
More info soon. I'll post a link or something to another thread. :p

[jns]

Here we go..
http://forums.winamp.com/showthread.php?s=&threadid=66823

[spunkbubble]

*rubs sleepy eyes*

[jns]

Sleepy? At this hour? :D
Now of course it's probably night or something where you are. :p

[spunkbubble]

It's 9.35 at night! :(

*wanders to bedroom to get bubby-baby I always cuddle with at night*

[jns]

Don't go to bed yet.
I need some company here until my photo class is starting.
It's only one hour and twenty minutes left.. :D:rolleyes:

[spunkbubble]

Hehe, guess what I did just before? Well it's Thursday night here and we have late night shopping on Thursdays, so I went to the shops in my slippers! I went in my black jeans and a purple top and my pink slippers! :D *beams* It was fun! :)

*puts on "Getting Better" by Geri Halliwell*

*sings along, jumps around, dances, wriggles bum in time to the music*


I love this song!! :) :) :)

[spunkbubble]

Aww I got to go now; night jns! Have a fun lesson :)

[jns]

:(
Well. I'll try. :p
Have a good night of sleep. :)

[izchan]

Jeez just went through hell gettin from work to home and back again.

Kind to think of it, sometimes I wonder the downfall of the society should be the Managers that makes us come to work on Saturdays on weather shitty like this .... ARG!!!!

Just venting.

[indabassment]

Well i'm not gonna claim to know it all about women. I've just come to this simple realization in my game...I can get the girls, just can't find one that keeps me interested. I've taken a few sociology + human sexuality classes in college...what i've gathered is that girls look 4 these simple things...Money,Money,Money,looks and a sense of humor +personality.
(Girl 1)One tactic that i used on getting this girl was just showing my emotional side(talked about how beautiful the night sky was :P)/plus i got her to jock me...cuz i acted shy = hit it...in a week (virgin)p.s. she still claims she's a virgin LOL
(Girl 2)I liked this girl from day one just never showed it. I was acutally a puss about it but i found the perfect oppurtunity to jock this chick and get her (waited until she lost weight) As soon as she lost the weight I switched from being a handsome guy friend to "a suddenly suprised at how beautiful she is" friend. She didn't lose a lot, but enough for me to suprised (or act suprised). Went out 4 a bit broke it off w/me P.S-Alkahol brought out the freak in her.=(didn't hit it :( ) <--notice i actually liked her (my bads).
***REally best advice is to have fun with being a player, girls have fun rejecting a guy(it works wonders for their self-esteem) your objective is to not give them that option

[spunkbubble]

It doesn't give me any pleasure whatsoever to reject a guy. I feel awful. And nasty. And find myself being really apologetic.

It isn't a nice feeling.

[Huehuetenango]

it ain't a nice feeling being the one dumped, either

sorry, i'm in a weird mood, i just found out that a friend who've i've had a very flirty relationship (wrong word, i think, can't think of a better one) w/ for about a year found out that i fancy her, somewhat
she ain't all that pleased about it, according to a mutual friend

and blue_zeal, i'm so sorry about your friend, man
he's in a better place now, you'll see him again someday (but don't rush, or anything)

[spunkbubble]

I'm in a weird mood too...Huehuetenango, don't jump to conclusions and automatically believe what the mutual friend said to be 100% true, it may not be. *hugs* Don't feel bad!!
:(

[spunkbubble]

Dance with me, Huehuetenango!! :D :) ;)

*puts on "Getting Better" by Geri Halliwell*

:cool:

[c2R]

Originally posted by spunkbubble
*puts on "Getting Better" by Geri Halliwell*

:cool:

oh dear, oh dear :(

/do mumbles about the youth of today etc.

[Bilbo Baggins]

:D

[Huehuetenango]

thanks for dancing w/ me, spunk

at least the girl is still my friend, and here's hoping alan is wrong, for once

[jns]

Don't jump to conclusions.
And don't listen to friends in that way, one can never know when they act out of jealousy..

[spunkbubble]

Originally posted by Huehuetenango
thanks for dancing w/ me, spunk

at least the girl is still my friend, and here's hoping alan is wrong, for once

You're welcome. :)
Everything will turn out for the best - well, it might not seem that way at first, but I think it's true...

If she's meant to be yours... You will be together...

Don't feel bad, bub.

[spunkbubble]

Originally posted by c2R


oh dear, oh dear :(

/do mumbles about the youth of today etc.

You don't even know the song, so don't knock it! *pokes tongue out* :p :p :p

At the moment I'm listening to my gorgeous, sexy 3 Doors Down album... Mmm, yum... This CD is my baby.

:D

[Bilbo Baggins]

*pokes something entirely different out*

:p

[spunkbubble]

How naughty! :o

I love it! ;)

*giggles*

[jns]

Woah!! :eek:
Where is this going? :rolleyes:
Ah, well, might as well be a part of it... :p

[Merlin]

Originally posted by weedsatan
But what I wanna know is. What movies are the guideline through your life?

Well, Back to the Future is a mirror image of my life. Except that I don't drive a DeLorean, cannot travel through time, do not have an eccentric doctor as a friend, was only 2 in 1985, live in England which is nothing like Hill Valley, and do not have a sweet black 4x4 in the garage. Oh, and I'm taller than Michael J Fox. Other than that...

[DJ ROACH]

my girfriend is from south pasidena, thats were back to the futre was filmed. ive seen the docs house wich is like the lions club or something, and biffs hous martys moms house all that cool stuff.

[Merlin]

Originally posted by DJ ROACH
my girfriend is from south pasidena, thats were back to the futre was filmed. ive seen the docs house wich is like the lions club or something, and biffs hous martys moms house all that cool stuff.

Nice. You have a large canyon round there, with a rail bridge over it?

[DJ ROACH]

no i dont know where that is? ive only seen the houses and a few streets and things my girl would no more baout it then i.

[Huehuetenango]

Originally posted by spunkbubble


You're welcome. :)
Everything will turn out for the best - well, it might not seem that way at first, but I think it's true...

If she's meant to be yours... You will be together...

Don't feel bad, bub.

i've always been a firm believer in destiny, as long as it worked out in my favour

and i trust the friend who told me this implicitly, and know that he has no designs on her. he has in fact tried to set the two of us up

[missyob]

Originally posted by Bilbo Baggins
*pokes something entirely different out*

:p

What is poking out and why? :D

~ Missy

[jns]

Originally posted by missyob


What is poking out and why? :D

~ Missy
Do any of us REALLY want to know? :rolleyes:

[izchan]

Originally posted by jns

Do any of us REALLY want to know? :rolleyes:

NO!!!!! ....

/me still curious though me/

:p

[jns]

Don't be.. it's dangerous.. :eek::p

[c2R]

Originally posted by jns
Don't be.. it's dangerous.. :eek::p

Yeah, they say curiosity killed the cat for a very good reason.

I think it also may apply to ape-decendents, as well as cats :D

[izchan]

Just thought that it will be fun to liven up the atmosphere here .... :) ... Enjoy

Another War Wound?


A guy goes into a public washroom and has to use the only available urinal, between two elderly men. He glances to his left and sees the guy pissing, but there are two streams.

"What the hell is that?" he asks.

"War wound. I took a bullet in the penis in North Africa. They were able to save my dick but they had to leave two holes"

Then the guy looks to his right and sees. . . three streams !!!

"What the hell is that?"

"War wound. Germany, bullet in the penis, left three holes"

The two veterans then look over at the guy in the middle and see. . . 12 streams!!

"War wound??"

"Naah, my zipper's stuck"

[7icha7d]

Originally posted by c2R

Yeah, they say curiosity killed the cat for a very good reason.

See my sig.
Izchan, that reminds me of another joke:
POW in Germany is doing some manual labor one day when he loses his left arm in an accident. When he has recovered, he asks if his arm can be sent to England to be buried with him when he dies. The Germans agree and send it off.
A few months later, he is caught in a fight and loses his right foot. Again, he requests that the Germans send it home, which they happily agree to.
3 weeks later, he is involved in *another* accident, this time losing his right leg. Again, he asks to have it shipped home. This time, however, the German officer refuses. "We believe," he says "You are trying to escape".
Hmm, maybe the person who told it to me told it better. Oh well.

[izchan]

Thats a bloody good joke ... but unfortunately I can't make myself laugh as much as I should.

Just received news that my grandpa passed away 1 hour ago. :(

... but keep the jokes coming ... make some noise ...

live a little before the end comes around ....

[jns]

Aww. :(
People that are close who passes by is never a fun thing. :(
Far from. :(
I remember when my grandpa passed away... :(

I hope you'll feel better soon, izchan.

[fwgx]

We've had the exact opposite of Four Weddings and a funerl in the past few months! :(

[Huehuetenango]

there's been a wedding?

izchan, you have my sympathies, man
remember all the good things about your grandfather
celebrate his life
(don't know if that means anything, sorry)

[missyob]

izchan,
I am so sincerely sorry to hear about your grandfather. I send you a big hug.

I know there is nothing to soften the pain right now, but know that he will always be in your heart, and with you always.

My 10 year old finds comfort in talking to his grandfather in heaven. He knows he cant come back here, nor talk back to him, but it comforts him to know that he can still talk to grandpa.

~ Missy

[fwgx]

Well for the past few weeks I've been talking to this girl I met on msn, we get along great and talk for hours and hours on the phone. She's 15 and I'm 19, anyway, I like her a lot because she's so damn nice and we have so much in common. We both want to meet one day, which would be really cool. Thing is she's in Wales and i'm not, I might be able to buy a car next year (and I will be moving somewhere on a work placement) so that might be easier to arrange a meeting. This girl isn't the downfall of society at all.

:)

[spunkbubble]

Good luck, Phily Baby. I hope it goes well. You have MSN?? Hey, add me if you want: fifi_spunkbubble@hotmail.com ... anyone else who wants to add me, go ahead :) .

*

I haven't seen the ex I told you about for 16 days, and it's late. Tomorrow morning it will be 17 days. We've never been out of contact with each other for so long. I tried txting him - no reply. That was about a week ago. I don't know what's going on. It's worrying - what do I do? :(

[krystine]

Spunk try not to think about it and go on with your life, I know it is very hard, but maybe that is what your ex is doing. There are other fish in the sea girl and i'm pretty sure that the right one is still out there for you!! If he doesn't love you as much as you love him he isn't worth it and you better keep you nice words and actions to yourself rather than spend it on an egoist.

Anyways that'S my two cents, sorry if I sound rough of insensitive, I don't mean too :(

[papadoc]

I agree with krystine.
Get on with your life young lady.
You have so much to give.
Someone is out there just waiting for you to whirl by.
Someone better I believe.
And I dare say you won't be lonely long,
unless you keep holding on to what was.

:D

[Huehuetenango]

move on w/ your life
you'll find someone else
or fate will intervene and all will work out
either way, dont' try to force anything
just lean back, relax and let life take you where it does

[spunkbubble]

I know I should move on, and I'm damn well trying... :(

*

But what if something's happened? What if he's been hurt? It just so isn't like him to behave like this... I've known him - well - for more than a year, and nothing like this has ever happened. I keep asking myself, 'What if he's gone?'. 'What if he's hurt?'.

Will I regret being "strong", and pretending I don't need him if he doesn't need me? Will I regret not admitting my feelings?

I'm just fucking scared right now, and I don't know what I can do. While I'm trying to move on, I know if something has happened to him, I will never forgive myself for not telling him how I felt all these months even after he hurt me.

[izchan]

Hello people ... I am back ... thanks for all your postings and I appreciate it. Grandpa passed away quietly without pain or suffering. I am glad.

I have cried and am now moving into bigger and brigther things.


Hey spunk,

Don't worry yourself over something that your mind conjure up. If you are worried than give a call to someone he knows and check if that person have any info on him. If you check on several and no one knows, then call his house and ask the parents.

But my guess is that he has something else that is pre-occupying his mind right now. Whatever it may be ... just to take the fear away, just do a routine call ... ok?

The truth is, that you should really move on ... as a friend, and as a fellow forum member, I urge you to let him go ... if you feel lonely, try to find something to do, go dancing ... a movie ... anything ... just keep your mind busy, once you get used to doing things alone again, you will be fine.

Let your life live again, spunk ... holding on to pass memories will only keep you there ... dream of something better and flow with your dream.

..... we are all here to support you.

[jns]

Originally posted by izchan
Hello people ... I am back ... thanks for all your postings and I appreciate it. Grandpa passed away quietly without pain or suffering. I am glad.

I have cried and am now moving into bigger and brigther things.

Glad to see you've moved on, an especially so quickly.
Myself, it takes a while to move on with life..

Oh, and for spunk, I have no advice.
There is no given answer for any situation in life..
Just try to follow the voice of your heart.. the problem might be hearing it..

[spunkbubble]

He came into contact with me last night...

It was very strange... :confused:

[jns]

Originally posted by spunkbubble
He came into contact with me last night...

It was very strange... :confused:
How? What happpened?
What did he say?

[izchan]

And so it begins ... the story of beling lost and returned ... of a feeling hidden and revealed ... tired and battered, the strong too will eventually fall.

So say the book of wisdom, so say the book of time.

[fifth age, Mid Avalon, Sayers of the dead]

[spunkbubble]

Originally posted by jns

How? What happpened?
What did he say?

I don't know, it was just a laidback conversation, we laughed, we were silly...Nothing serious, no mention of his disappearance.

Flirting..

AHH! I'm going mad! :o

[jns]

Originally posted by spunkbubble


I don't know, it was just a laidback conversation, we laughed, we were silly...Nothing serious, no mention of his disappearance.

Flirting..

AHH! I'm going mad! :o
Aww. You should've talked about that. :(

[fwgx]

To this girl, we can just talk for hours and hours at a time, we usually have to go because it's late and we need some sleep. Last night we could only talk for 50min because I didn't have any credit and she gets 50 min free a day. It went so fast! We'll make up for it tonight though :).

[spunkbubble]

Originally posted by Phily Baby
To this girl, we can just talk for hours and hours at a time, we usually have to go because it's late and we need some sleep. Last night we could only talk for 50min because I didn't have any credit and she gets 50 min free a day. It went so fast! We'll make up for it tonight though :).

*cries*

That sounds just like what we...

Forget it.

:(

[fwgx]

Aww, i'm sorry bubble, didn't mean to bring them memories back :(

Get out there and "Up and Atom!" as it were, there's someone there for you you just might not have met them yet. :)

[papadoc]

I'm beginning to feel like spunkbubble is a hopeless romantic,
just like me.
But I've got many years on you spunkbubble,
and I've learned through many hopeless romantic nights,
sitting by myself waiting for lady guinevere to come
riding into my life on a great white horse,
that she can't get through the locked door I sat behind.
It's not that she wasn't out there,
it's just that I was to hopelessly lost in empty romance
to get out there myself and find her.
:D

[izchan]

: As dreamer's dream

Aren't we all just born dreamers
dreaming for a better life
dreaming for a better mates
dreaming for all that is better

And dreams so often come down hard
falling from which the sky is the limit
hurting all that is fragile in us
threatening all which is ours

Ah but dream on we still
looking into those distant horizon
waiting for truth to appear
and say that we were not wronged
that we were the virtues

sad as it might seem
small that it may be
keep your dreams my friends
for without dreams are those that does not live.
though pain migh filll us now
dream of the joy when we do achieve
of the better days that's coming


There is too much negativity in here, and I can understand the reasons. And yet I can't help but feel for us all in these situations of pain. A part of us craves for attention, no matter minor .. no matter how insignificant.

Let's move on friends, let the dead bury themselves. Time will pass and all will be but a distant memory. the brigther days ahead, as long as you are willing to seek it.

I have done grieving of all the things that I have lost. And began anew to cherish the things I have. dream, build and live for a better future, for if we don't move on, we will always wallow in these past sea of pains forever.

[fwgx]

Very well put, but never forget also. Move on but remember.

[spunkbubble]

Originally posted by papadoc
I'm beginning to feel like spunkbubble is a hopeless romantic,
just like me.
But I've got many years on you spunkbubble,
and I've learned through many hopeless romantic nights,
sitting by myself waiting for lady guinevere to come
riding into my life on a great white horse,
that she can't get through the locked door I sat behind.
It's not that she wasn't out there,
it's just that I was to hopelessly lost in empty romance
to get out there myself and find her.
:D

You're right, papadoc, I am the world's worst hopeless romantic.

What you wrote was beautifully poetic. :) Probably true, as well. Right now I just feel like hiding now, though. I hate Christmas. I hated last Christmas, it was miserable, I ended up in tears at the dinner table of my family's huge Christmas dinner. Maybe I'll just hide until Christmas and New Year's are over.

Weak, isn't it?

Thanks papadoc, you're lovely.

[Lunavora]

Originally posted by himican
Girls are great.. fun to hang around and talk to (not to mention look at!!).... unfortunently, they can never make up their mind. Guys have to do EVERYTHING. Ask them out, pay for dates, try to get the girl to like him, etc. The girl just sits their, and enjoys it. She will say that she loves him, and they get close. (Girls just want you to like them... once you do, they don't have to like you anymore, their work is done.) Then all of a sudden, she will break it off and say that she never really had feelings for him. Girls can turn on and off their feelings, they never REALLY like anyone! And it doesn't even bother them that they hurt others in the process. Relationships are all about them (That's why guys have to do everything)... Anyway, when 2 guys get in a fight, the next day they are friends again. Girls on the other hand, enemies for life! Their feelings can shut off like light switches, and that's why the divorce rate is so high! Girls only care about themselves and never have true set feelings for anyone else (except family). Just be their FRIEND and nothing more, and you can't lose. Anyway, I've rambled on too much... I'm done.

Come on, don't be so bitter. Don't blame us because you had (a) bad experience(s). I'm a girl and I could say almost the exact same thing about guys.

We can't turn our feelings off and on. They're always there. We're just better at hiding them (or you just plain can't read feelings).

It does bother us that we hurt others if we break up with them. But you can't do much about it when you know the relationship isn't going anywhere.

The divorce rate is high because people nowadays are thinking that they're really in love when they're not.

And that part about guys doing everything... that's really insulting. You make us sounds as though we were stupid or something. Maybe you had to pay for all the dates you and your date went on, but the people I know share the cost.

Do you know what we do when we get to go out with a guy we like? If we're not with them, we think about them and wonder what they're doing.

[spunkbubble]

I am such an idiot! Damnit!

[Huehuetenango]

don't be so hard on yourself?

is there something else you'd care to talk about, or are you just planning to insult yourself?

[papadoc]

originally posted by spunkbubble
I am such an idiot! Damnit!
Now what is it my fair lady?
:confused:

[spunkbubble]

Originally posted by Huehuetenango
don't be so hard on yourself?

is there something else you'd care to talk about, or are you just planning to insult yourself?

Insulting myself sounds pretty damn good right now.

[spunkbubble]

Originally posted by papadoc

Now what is it my fair lady?
:confused:

I'm just stupid. I've been behaving like a stupid girl for the last year, hanging onto memories which aren't ever going to be reality again. For God's sake, when will I stop being so bloody stupid and just learn to move on?

[Bilbo Baggins]

Wil this cheeky kick up the backside help? :p

[spunkbubble]

Oh that made me feel better! I think I need to laugh more.

*pinches Bilbo's bum*

Thankyou and goodnight!

*

This is just another of my mood swings... I felt stupid and I still do a little... But I guess it isn't my fault. He left me, remember? I gotta stop blaming myself.:D

[John M]

what is logical and what your emotions tell you to do can often be different, sometimes polar opposites. this is because the logical part of you wants to shrug off the old and move on, but the emotional side clings to memories of a 'happier' time.

[spunkbubble]

Originally posted by John M
what is logical and what your emotions tell you to do can often be different, sometimes polar opposites. this is because the logical part of you wants to shrug off the old and move on, but the emotional side clings to memories of a 'happier' time.

You're right, of course.
I wish I was as smart as the people here - or at least smart enough to take your advice - and go through with it.

[papadoc]

originally posted by Spunkbubble
I wish I was as smart as the people here
You are!!!
:eek:
or at least smart enough to take your advice
You are and you most definately should!!!
and go through with it.
You will in time, sooner than later for your own happiness!!!
Please?
:D

[papadoc]

I am worried about Spunkbubble.
I miss her and hope she's ok.
So I'm sending my little freind out...
http://www.animatedgif.net/cartoons/run_e0.gif...to search the world for Spunkbubble.

[izchan]

Don't worry doc, I still see her login in MSN often.

She just needs some time off ... same like me ... :)

Merry christmas people, and a happy new year.

[papadoc]

Thank you very much izchan :D
She's one of my favorite people here!
I know how it is to need to get away from here for a bit.
I do every once in a while.
Have a great Christmas and happy New Year.
:)

[izchan]

I just can't seem to get the christmas songs out of my mind ... :)

Het doc, how do you celebrate christmas at your end of the world ... :)

[papadoc]

Around here the family always meets on Christmas eve night
for a big dinner, usually a big sugar cured ham,
with potatoe salad and green beans and stuff like that.
Then on Christmas day we get together again and open gifts,
and have another big dinner.
Then we lay down all fat and happy and fall asleep.
That's about it.
:D

[izchan]

ah ... the fun of eating untill you drop ...

Me ... at our family?

It is open house where everyone bring a little of something.

We skiped the turkey a long time ago due to the reason that it was too darn big and hell ... the meat feels harsh ...

We opted for the chicken (lots of it) and pork mainly ...

there are plenty of food to go around and we all gather for a good nights feast.

Presents are opend the next day and like all jolly people, we tend to hug and say thank you, in which we will just go for the gift exchange counter the next day and changed our presents to something that we want ... :)

Then we all gather around the sacred CABLE and spend the rest of the day in front of AXN, HALLMARK or HBO ... :) ... not to forget the disney channel and cartoon network for the younger ones ...

by mention of we you will have guessed it is the beer hugging race in the family which is the males ... the woman folks will most probably be in the kitchen tending to the meals or whatever left of it. Then the rest of the day is spend in gossip about the pass years events ... :) ... almost like a news recast of the great events in the year.

did I miss anything?

yeah ... there is also the christmas eve sex ritual that goes very much wild ... :) ... only performed behind close doors and muffled walls ... :)

Merry christmas people ... and know this ... if the year ends today .. it only means that we are born again in gods gracious land ... :)

[papadoc]

originally posted by izchan
Merry christmas people ... and know this ... if the year ends today .. it only means that we are born again in gods gracious land... :)
Amen!
This is the very reason I'm not afraid of death or dying.
Although I may not have much, and things aren't like
I thought they would be, and I've made allot of terrible mistakes,
I'm at peace with myself, and my family, and my maker.
I wish I could explain to others this feeling of serenity.
I guess you have to be there to know.
:D
/me still missing spunkbubble
:(

[spunkbubble]

Originally posted by papadoc
I am worried about Spunkbubble.
I miss her and hope she's ok.
So I'm sending my little freind out...
http://www.animatedgif.net/cartoons/run_e0.gif...to search the world for Spunkbubble.

Your little friend found me!

You're so sweet, I shouldn't have just disappeared like that, I've been doing a lot of thinking and self-discovery.

As well as that I've been counselling a friend who was feeling quite suicidal - he seems to be doing a lot better now, even though he still does get quite unhappy, but he now knows more than ever I'm there for him if he needs a shoulder to cry on.

I've also been redesigning one of my websites and getting some stuff organised for a client...

And of course been rushed away with the usual Christmas hubbub of activity.

*collapses on couch*

How have you been, papadoc? Well I hope. And I hope you (and everyone else of course) have a fantastic Christmas and may next year be your best year! :D

Papadoc - do you have MSN Messenger? ;)

[papadoc]

I'm happy now...http://www.plauder-smilies.de/bounce/1syellow1.gif...my little friend found Spunkbubble.
I'm glad your ok, and doing so much to keep yourself
occupied. That's great. Keep up the good work.
by spunkbubble
As well as that I've been counselling a friend who was feeling quite suicidal - he seems to be doing a lot better now, even though he still does get quite unhappy, but he now knows more than ever I'm there for him if he needs a shoulder to cry on.
I'm impressed :)
I found out that the best way to help myself is to help others.
Good for you spunkbubble!!!
:D
Happy Holidays and don't stay away so long my friend.
Oh yea, I don't have MSN but I'll see what I can do.
:D

[spunkbubble]

No sleep, no sex, for you from your x-girlfriend
I was too deep can't let you call me just jump in
At times I would push my feelings aside to let you feel
I'm novocaine I'm numb and nothing's real

Like the coldest winter
I am frozen from you
I was weak before now you've made me
So numb I don't feel much for you anymore
I gave you my all my baby
I'm numb, numb, numb

But the tears were silent inside you see

I laid there quiet
And watched you have your way with me
I might have cried
But the tears were silent inside you see
You called me names
Made me feel like I was dumb
I didn't feel a thing
And now I'm gone, gone, gone

Like a battered child
I got used to your pain but you know it's 'cause

I was weak before now you've made me
So numb I don't feel much for you anymore

[Bilbo Baggins]

Wow. THat was reallly beautiful. Better than anything i can write.

[papadoc]

Very very nice Spunkbubble :up:
Well done.
:D

[izchan]

WOW!!!!
:eek:

I am totally blown away by that spunk ... you really have something huge inside of you ... best let it all out girl ...

I have been in pain before, but never had I ever felt that much pain in my life thus far.

Oh ... if words could kill ... those words will be man slaugther.

....

: Be as it may

Be that as it may
numb, dumb, forgotten days
drugs that takes the soul away
lies that hides under good intentions
bastards that lives on freely
and virtues that fades
what a shitty day

....

here is a pathatic try of a poem today ...

[spunkbubble]

Oops! I didn't write that. It's called "Numb" and it's track 12 on P!nk's new album, one of my favourite songs of the moment.

I did, however, write this..

not with fists


sometimes i need to hurt you,
just so i know you're hurting too.
i want to hit you
not with fists, but stinging words
to say i don't need you, and i never did
i guess i just want to lie to you
so you can feel the pain like i do

..

It's nothing wonderful but hey, I'm not a um, songwriter so yeah.

:)

[izchan]

Originally posted by spunkbubble
not with fists


sometimes i need to hurt you,
just so i know you're hurting too.
i want to hit you
not with fists, but stinging words
to say i don't need you, and i never did
i guess i just want to lie to you
so you can feel the pain like i do

..

:) [/B]

Beutifully written, and frankly ... I think most girls I fall in love with do the same thing to me ... they do it so that they know that I am still there for them ... :)

[ujay]

I really like this thread, and have a dip in every now and then.

I don't feel I have a lot to contribute, I made my peace with the fairer sex many years ago and we get on just fine now.
For me it comes down to 'Be honest' and 'Don't play games'.

It strikes me there is more humanity in this one thread than the rest of the board put together.
Well done every one who has contributed.

UJ

[Bilbo Baggins]

It doesn't matter. Any opinion is a worthy opinion.

[papadoc]

Thanks ujay.
That means allot coming from you.
I come here quite often to keep up with the
ups and downs (no pun intended) of Spunkbubble.
She's so amazing with her highs and lows.
It really keeps me on my feet to keep up with her.
And it's fun!!!
:D

[izchan]

The biggest reason why I was come into this forum is because of this thread, during those were debates about the pains and tears, plus the human emotions that is part of the whole conversation is very attractive.

But the most important thing that I thank this thread for is that it gave me a chance to be someone better than I was. By being more understanding and sharing and caring, I have found myself again, after selling it to my work life a long time ago.

Thanks to everyone here, I can now work and walk without feeling those feeling of lost anymore.

Remember the truth ...

Don't let someone else's reality govern your life.
Make your own world work for you.

Iz

[papadoc]

Well said izchan :up:
Since you first got here and started posting
I've noticed a positive change in your thoughts
and your words.
This is especially evident in your poetry and verse.
I for one am proud of you.
Keep it up, but always remember...
for every high road there is a low one.
What you learn and remember on the high road
will get you through the low.
:D
/me now takes off me philosophy hat
:)

[spunkbubble]

I come here because of this topic. I don't even bother checking the rest of the forum, I have this topic's URL saved and I get emailed when somebody has replied.

It's like therapy.

I can be angry, happy, tearful, crazy - everything here, and nobody criticises, instead advice is offered and experiences shared.

[spunkbubble]

Originally posted by papadoc
I come here quite often to keep up with the
ups and downs (no pun intended) of Spunkbubble.
She's so amazing with her highs and lows.
It really keeps me on my feet to keep up with her.
And it's fun!!!
:D

You're so sweet. *blushes*

I hope you get MSN so I can talk to you more. :)

*kisses papadoc's cheek*

[Bilbo Baggins]

I think that this thread proves that these are the greatest forums in the world. Three cheers for everyone!

[Huehuetenango]

excellent point, bilbo

and spunk, nice to see you're in a bit better mood, now

and everyone: i've actually met a girl who thinks I'M too good for HER (as opposed to the opposite)
if this is possible, it proves ANYTHING is
anyone for some time travel?

[spunkbubble]

distuingishing between tears and the drops of water streaming from the shower became impossible, and only an ache could be felt.

[papadoc]

Hey Spunkbubble.
I dug through some of my old writings
and found this:

I awoke last night
and all was dark
and the rain was falling down
upon my windowsill.
And I looked about and started crying
Tears fell down upon the cheeks of my face
like the rain that fell upon my windowsill.
And I wondered:
Are the raindrops as heavy as my teardrops
Are my teardrops as heavy as the raindrops
Where is the moon
Where are the stars
Why can't I see,
where my life is going
Where is that bridge I need to cross
tonight without you.
:D

[sinead]

OK, as a girl I have to say something. Some of you, not all, who have all these problems with girls seem to have decided that ALL girls are annoying, or ALL girls talk too much or whatever. If somebody started a topic about how men are the downfall of society, what would you say? Those of you who can't get a girl are either not trying enough or are trying too hard. How many people DON'T have a cell phone these days? Not everybody can get along with everybody. all girls do not talk too much (obviously I do, but that's beside the point). All girls don't want you to buy stuff. And all girls don't go for bad boys or challenges. A lot of us just wish you'd stop trying to impress us and act like yourselves because we just need a hug and some company. I'll shut up now.

[izchan]

Welcome Sinead, it is always nice to hear new voices in the forum.

As for the need to a hug and company. I think those that have been on this thread long enough would have gotten that part into their heart already ... :) ... but it is nice to be confirmed of our beliefs.

I spend most of my time with my girl friend doing nothing more than hold her hands just to let her know that I am there. The hugs are especially nice when both of us feels each others presence when we need to be part of something bigger than ourselfs.

But I do have a question though ...

which would a woman prefer ...

1. a man that spend most of his time with her but cannot pursue a better future for both of them (financially)

2. a man that spend a marginal time with her and dedicate a portion of his time to the business for their future (financially)

3. a man that spends ALL his time with her and still able to make ends meet (just meeting all the monthly expense with no savings)

....

If it is non of the above, then could someone just tell me what it is that is more preferable, the key to the question is, how much time is enough to make a girl feel happy, and yet still be able to be able to have a future with financial security ...

Money IS not the most important thing, but it is connected to all the things that ARE important, without it, the important things are very hard to achieve. Which is my current delima ... it is hard to spend all my time with my girl friend, without having any left for me in self improvement and financial planning.

Anybody care to comment?

[Bilbo Baggins]

It is everbodies personal perference. I am never going to be able to afford all the nice things that I want to buy for my girlfriend, and she accepts that, but as long as I am with her as we are growing old together, then we are both happy because for us it is not the material objects that we can provide for one another, but the raw emotion and love that we can provide for each other. To me, sitting on a grass bank with my girlfriend in my arms is priceless. I would much rather do that than expect her to buy me shit loads.

[Tach]

Guys, I just wanted to thank you all for such a great forum. This has changed the way I look at things in general so much that it's amazing. Ya know, not many users of forums have a bond like you guys have, and that too is amazing. It just goes to show that not all people are bad, and neither sex is the downfall or collapse of society. It's in the ways we treat each other. Anyways, thanks again for the forum.

[spunkbubble]

Originally posted by papadoc
Hey Spunkbubble.
I dug through some of my old writings
and found this:

I awoke last night
and all was dark
and the rain was falling down
upon my windowsill.
And I looked about and started crying
Tears fell down upon the cheeks of my face
like the rain that fell upon my windowsill.
And I wondered:
Are the raindrops as heavy as my teardrops
Are my teardrops as heavy as the raindrops
Where is the moon
Where are the stars
Why can't I see,
where my life is going
Where is that bridge I need to cross
tonight without you.
:D

That's beautiful, papadoc. I especially liked the line: "Where is that bridge I need to cross tonight without you", I can't stop thinking about it.

I have hit another low, even though I tried so hard not to. I picked up a book called "Dark Angel" (nothing to do with the tv series) which I know makes me cry - it makes me cry everytime I read it, makes me question and doubt and feel so terribly alone; but I picked it up and I finished it in less than a day. A part of me thought, "You're only reading this because you want to get over it". Maybe I wanted to prove to myself I was strong enough to read a story about broken love without sobbing uncontrollably.
I failed miserably.
I don't know, maybe I was deliberately trying to be unhappy. It's like a blanket I can cling to; and missing my ex is a feeling I am so familiar with I can do it nonstop for a whole day and get nothing else accomplished. I can waste hours longing for him, or remembering how it used to be, or imagining how it should be ... me and him.

I wonder, will I be able to love again? Ever?

I need someone to love me, and care, and be kind. To understand me and forgive me for my mistakes, and let me know I am an okay person.

[spunkbubble]

Papadoc - Do you have Yahoo messenger, AIM, ICQ? I have this program which allows me to talk on just about every and all chat client and I just figured out how to use it.

[sinead]

Really, it depends on personality type and things like that, izchan. If you've got a girl who really really cares about money and as long as there's a lot of it you only need to see her once a week in a broom closet, then there you go. But i wouldn't recommend one.Personally, I don't think I'd like to think I was holding somebody back from a better career, but I do need to see them. It's nice to think that I wouldn't have to worry about finances, but you seem to be overlooking the fact that women can have jobs and can provide too. I guess I really don't think I like any of them, but I really don't give a damn about money. This is still a matter of personal preference. I could probably live with somebody in a little huy in oregon without indoor plumbing if i had to.

So none of these would be very desirable, but it's really up to the girl. Some care, some don't, you just have to figure it out. If you're spending a lot of time with them and making ends meet, the down-to-earth ones will be happy and they'll love you for who you are.

On a side note, you sound like a really good boyfriend. Do you really spend ALL your time with your girlfriend? I would advise against that. See her often, but if you're not getting enough time for yourself, I'd really take some time for yourself, even if it's just a little. If you feel like you need self-improvement, than you should take some time to do it, the same with financial planning. Even though it's nice to have a guy around, everybody needs time for themself. And you're right that hugging is good. :)

[kaufmanmoore]

I'm only 17 and i agree with u totally. I am a nice guy and the girls i know are shallow and go for the bastards. Girls totally suck, so it looks like i'll have to get rich so i can afford a steady bimbo b4 i'll ever get laid. i know is that i have no game. Its goo dto know that i'm not the only one that sees this problem

[Huehuetenango]

dude, not all girls are like that
a very good friend of mine jsut started going out w/ a guy who everyone agrees is EXACTLY like me. (and they also say that both he and i are very nice guys, not bastards at all)
kind of scary, actually, especially since i was convinced she'd never have anything to do w/ a guy like me
ironic, eh?

[izchan]

Bilbo and Sinead, point taken, it is not really about the money that I am asking about, it is really about the time. You see, what I am dealing with now, is the resource in which I only have 24 hours a day. And that I have things to do that interest me too, I have told my girl friend about it, and she totally agrees and seem to understand what it is that I wish to achieve.

Yet, I am still wondering if I came up with the proper solution.

This is my proposition to her,
I have an 8 hour day job (depending sometimes 10)
I spend atleast another 4 - 5 hours with her
I have my 8 hour sleep cylcle
I will have 3 - 4 hours to myself depending

The above is a perfect time table without consideration of traffic and other unseen circustances.

I am working on my side job within that 3-4 hour time frame. Because I want to plan ahead for future endaevours.

I know there are 2 in a relationship and that she too is contributing, it is just something that I don't take for granted that's all. I just like to be prepared.

I seldom take anything in my life for granted anymore since my mom died. I cherish every minute or it, and take care of it vigorously but never take it as GOD GIVEN, for anything given can be taken back.

Plus, it is not so much so as getting into a relationship to feel happy or not lonely, I get into a relationship because it makes me a better person. Caring for others other than my own often makes me a fuller person. That is also why I believe in GOD.

I always see things in a particular way, if we do something that does not better ourself in any way, that thing is not worth doing. Even crying is a considered something worth doing, because it allows us to let go all of the pain. But too much of it, does not contribute anymore because it only causes the pain to increase when it reached its bottom.

Everything we do will contribute to something, just make it a point to ensure that the contibutions allows you to increase in the quality of your life and not decrease it.

I think I might have side tracked ... I was just wandering if a girl will mind if we take some time out to make a better future so that we can have more time for them in the future ... woman's are very strange creatures, I love them the way they are, but sometimes, it elludes me on the way they think, so I am here humbly asking for advices that might assist me in my future plannings ...

If someone will care to comment, I will be happy to listen.
This is stricly a discussion of my views, so don't get too physical on me .. :) .. I am a very weak individual who needs supports ... :)

[sinead]

I don't think a girl would mind you taking time for future planning, Your time frame is good. You've got time for yourself, which is important. You've got my support. :)

[izchan]

I just wrote this at my poem thread and thought that it will be very much suitable here ... enjoy ... :)

: Heart Slaves

We are slaves of our hearts
Whatever it wishes we provide
Whatever it fancies we supply
we battle the unseen just to get
the diamond that sits in the sky

Yet our hearts often flikers
Never knowing what it wants
Seldom the same from one second to another
often not remembering yesterday's lover

Like a drunken monkey
our hearts will wander
until one day some passer by
will come and cage it inside
their walls of solid will
with candy words and sweet aroma
the passer by soften our hearts
and captures our hearts desire

At the end we are still a slave to our hearts
and the love of our life becomes its master

[spunkbubble]

I thought, maybe, just once, I deserved what I wanted, and I'd gotten it; by just being me.
I was wrong.
I should have remembered my place, remembered I'm never going to have anyone's love.

Who would ever love me for who I am? Who would ever stay with me?

If I ever have a child...Which I won't, I know that now... But if I did, I would keep her away from fairytales. I would keep her away from Hallmark cards, and romantic movies. They are all fabricated lies to make us believe we will find true love - when I know now that true love doesn't exist.

I want to banish every sliver of light that ever entered my life. Because now the light has gone, and darkness falls.

[papadoc]

Izchan...
I think you have a great plan for your life set out.
Don't let the inevitable sidetracks and setbacks discourage you.
Stay true to your beliefs and your goals, and they'll guide
you through any problems.
And never run from a problem. Meet it and fight it head on,
as opposed to thinking if you ignore it, it will go away.
And I also think that as long as you and your girlfreind
have an open an honest relationship, with communication,
you two will take that journey together.

Spunkbubble...
I am a very firm believer that things happen for a reason.
And I believe that if it's meant to be, it will happen,
if not, it won't.
Now, there are times when you have a little control over those things.
Like making the choice to say hello or goodbye.
Other times, things just happen by fate.
But there are also times when you let things control you.
When that happens, when you loose control, and let good or bad things
dictate your choices, you are in trouble.

Ask any addict, like myself, what one thing causes the downward spiral
in his or her life.
They will tell you the day they lost control and let their problems
control them. They refuse to face those problems head on and deal with them.
And down and down they go until one of two things happen.
They hit bottom and die, or they hit bottom and start back up.
I, Spunkbubble, choose to start back up.
It is a very hard climb for me sometimes, and I may stumble,
but I refuse to fall. I have only my greater power and myself to rely on.
No wife, no girlfriend (rght now).

Having said all that, my hope is that you too take back control,
and fight your way back up.
If I can do it from where I started, you can do it from where you are.
Your'e so young and have so much ahead of you.
Don't hurry love or a relationship.
And they'll both find you, if your on your way up.
:D

[John M]

Originally posted by spunkbubble

If I ever have a child...Which I won't, I know that now... But if I did, I would keep her away from fairytales. I would keep her away from Hallmark cards, and romantic movies. They are all fabricated lies to make us believe we will find true love - when I know now that true love doesn't exist.

~Ignorance is Bliss~

ever heard that saying? i'm sure that when you believed in that stuff, you were happier than you are now. true love does exist, you have yet to find it.

[izchan]

spunk dear what's wrong? who made you so gloomy?

Ah ... love ... the ever so mysterious feeling that we feel whenever we meet 'The One'.

Well ... just so you know dear, love is never easy. I know because I went theough atleast 4 of them and now going on number 5.

everyone one of them was hard, and every one was a struggle. Yet each had a different thing for me to worry about, and different obstacles to jump over.

I learned very early in my life, that nothing is ever easy. That is why I love my life, everything I do is a chanlenge by itself.

It is not suppose to make us dispair.

Love is hard work. We have to let go of self before we can gain it back. Yet, that alone is only the first part of the whole story.

There are many more things that will constantly try our patients, wisdom and heart. A relationship is not just a feeling dear, it is about actions, emotions and wisdom as well.

We say everyday, 'I love you' but how many of us actualy do.

I try to make it a point everyday that I realy LOVE (a verb) my girlfriend before I say the word (a noun). simple things like giving her a very pasionate kiss, or taking her out for a walk, or just plain hold her hand tightly just to let her know I am there. It gives more meaning when I say the words. And I feel better knowning that I have done what I said.

here is an old poem that I wrote and I think I posted it somewhere here.

: Silly Me

I am but a fool
stumbling through the night
staring at nothing
thinking it is light

Emotions are a tumble
nothing seems to go right
heart is moving backwards
what a sorry sight

If I was smarter
I would have known
that true love is an action
not a word on a tomb

[spunkbubble]

Idle with despair.
I need some love like I've never needed love before.

[papadoc]

Just for you Spunkbubble
I send these dozen roses with love:
http://flowers.arcamax.com/images/products/roses/12redrosestikilarge.jpg

[spunkbubble]

Nobody has ever given me flowers. Thankyou papadoc *kisses your cheek*.

I just feel as though I'm slipping; slipping; slipping; and before I was making myself climb back up; out of the dark hole - now I don't want to even try.

[Wizard_Of_Oz]

Originally posted by spunkbubble
I thought, maybe, just once, I deserved what I wanted, and I'd gotten it; by just being me.
I was wrong.
I should have remembered my place, remembered I'm never going to have anyone's love.

Who would ever love me for who I am? Who would ever stay with me?

If I ever have a child...Which I won't, I know that now... But if I did, I would keep her away from fairytales. I would keep her away from Hallmark cards, and romantic movies. They are all fabricated lies to make us believe we will find true love - when I know now that true love doesn't exist.

I want to banish every sliver of light that ever entered my life. Because now the light has gone, and darkness falls.

I was just reading a couple of the replies on this forum and i guess as a johnny-come-lately i'm not aware of everything surrounding the break-up with your ex. I did notice one thing though, and that's how you've changed from a fairly optimistic young girl to a cynic who seems to have little to no self esteem whatsoever. You say you're 16?
That's awfully young to write off love. You suffered a broken heart and i truly comisserate, but don't let that trash your sense of self worth. Everyone goes through their ups and downs in love. I naively thought i had found the love of my life at 18 years of age and when we broke up i was devastated, but i realised i was being unrealistic. It was a major relationship yes, but i realised i had time on my side. I remembered the good times i had with her, because nothing takes that away. I've got another girlfriend now and it's amazing. I'm experiencing feelings i never thought i'd have again, but a this time round it's a hundred times better.
Everyone deserves love. And everyone deserves a little fantasy in their life. You choose to believe whether or not fairytales are true, just like you choose to believe in true love. Look within yourself, be true to yourself and don't accept anything less than you deserve. You sound like a fantastic person. I really wish you all the best.
Well that's my 2c.

[ujay]

I really don't mean to sound harsh here, Spunkbubble my dear

But please find yourself a name that it will be worth growing into eh. :) :)

UJ

[DJ ROACH]

i have stayed away form this thread for awhile, lurking, waiting....i just caught myself up on the last ohh 3 pages...it was like reading an emotional novel. these forums are truly the best, the feelings i felt in the last 10 minutes reading these pages were true emotions...i hardly get feelings like that at all from reading. i thought of my future, every one here their lives girls, my girl, old girls, ETC. geeesh...it was unreal how many emotions i could go thru in ten minutes.
and this is exactly the reason im posting now, spunk, your a good person and you have a lovely attitude. just like i went thru emotions reading this thread, youll go thru emotions looking at your past. i remember things i did when i was young and not being able to do them anymore (even though they were bad for me and others) leaves a big whole in my hart and takes a part of my smile until i stop thinking about it. im not saying youll be able to just forget, but itll come and itll go and the more time that has past the easier itll get.
just remember that, and keep moving forward. always keep your mind open to change. if you do things will get better, when you close your mind to new ideas new loves new things, youll stay were your at and im sure thats not what you want. keep your head up you have allot going for you.

[spunkbubble]

Originally posted by Wizard_Of_Oz


I was just reading a couple of the replies on this forum and i guess as a johnny-come-lately i'm not aware of everything surrounding the break-up with your ex. I did notice one thing though, and that's how you've changed from a fairly optimistic young girl to a cynic who seems to have little to no self esteem whatsoever. You say you're 16?
That's awfully young to write off love. You suffered a broken heart and i truly comisserate, but don't let that trash your sense of self worth. Everyone goes through their ups and downs in love. I naively thought i had found the love of my life at 18 years of age and when we broke up i was devastated, but i realised i was being unrealistic. It was a major relationship yes, but i realised i had time on my side. I remembered the good times i had with her, because nothing takes that away. I've got another girlfriend now and it's amazing. I'm experiencing feelings i never thought i'd have again, but a this time round it's a hundred times better.
Everyone deserves love. And everyone deserves a little fantasy in their life. You choose to believe whether or not fairytales are true, just like you choose to believe in true love. Look within yourself, be true to yourself and don't accept anything less than you deserve. You sound like a fantastic person. I really wish you all the best.
Well that's my 2c.

I guess I have changed. In fact, I know I've changed lately. Some of it is silly little habits; like always sitting in the dark, every night. The light switch is right next to my desk and yet I don't flick it on like I used to when sunset came. Isn't that silly, and pointless? Yet even now I am sitting in the dark. I don't care. I don't talk as much as I did two weeks ago, either. I think I've just decided to withdraw. My eyes have black around them from my lack of sleep and I'm continuously losing weight. Around 10 kilo's so far, I don't know how quickly I lost it since I usually don't weigh myself regularly, but I had lost eight kilo's a week or so ago, and now another 2 more.

Now don't feel bad, or sorry, or pity me. For I am bringing this on myself, it's my own fault.

I'm sorry your heart was broken; but immensely pleased that you found another girlfriend to love. However I don't want anybody. For it seems I hold on to love too tightly and it shatters; or runs away. It is something I don't expect to ever experience; and I don't wonder if I will now. I've just accepted that I won't, and you know what? That's okay, because I'm so damn numb right now I don't know what I'm feeling.

I guess a lot of what I just said makes little, or no, sense, and in some ways it wasn't even a proper reply to you; and I'm sorry. I know a lot of the time I don't make any sense.

[spunkbubble]

Originally posted by ujay
I really don't mean to sound harsh here, Spunkbubble my dear

But please find yourself a name that it will be worth growing into eh. :) :)

UJ

I'm sorry, I'm not quite sure I understand?

One of my very closest friends gave me this nickname one night when we were mucking around and being silly... I guess you had to be there.

[spunkbubble]

Originally posted by DJ ROACH
i have stayed away form this thread for awhile, lurking, waiting....i just caught myself up on the last ohh 3 pages...it was like reading an emotional novel. these forums are truly the best, the feelings i felt in the last 10 minutes reading these pages were true emotions...i hardly get feelings like that at all from reading. i thought of my future, every one here their lives girls, my girl, old girls, ETC. geeesh...it was unreal how many emotions i could go thru in ten minutes.
and this is exactly the reason im posting now, spunk, your a good person and you have a lovely attitude. just like i went thru emotions reading this thread, youll go thru emotions looking at your past. i remember things i did when i was young and not being able to do them anymore (even though they were bad for me and others) leaves a big whole in my hart and takes a part of my smile until i stop thinking about it. im not saying youll be able to just forget, but itll come and itll go and the more time that has past the easier itll get.
just remember that, and keep moving forward. always keep your mind open to change. if you do things will get better, when you close your mind to new ideas new loves new things, youll stay were your at and im sure thats not what you want. keep your head up you have allot going for you.

This thread is a rollercoaster of emotions - much like me. I've said before it is like therapy [this thread] and I still believe so.

As for moving forward...Isn't it strange that everytime I attempt to forget I am introduced to somebody with his name, or I pick up a book whose author has his name, or I see a sign with his name on it, or I hear someone in the street calling out to somebody who shares his name.

Is he my soulmate? Why does this happen? Everywhere I go, something to remind me follows, making moving forward unbearable.

I just don't understand, but every instinct tells me to not let go. Regardless of how much it hurts - am I just being a fool again?

[DJ ROACH]

me plays song for spunk turns it up loud so she can here.
adjust volmue here ;) (http://home1.gte.net/res0ia5q/nakedeyes.mp3)
that song is just for you spunk!

[izchan]

Good day people ...

wow ... have not been in the thread for some time and people become so solemn.

spunk dear, I think the only you are going to get out of that hole you are in is by slowly coming to terms with it in time. I remember telling a friend once that one of these days, he will finally realize that he is in a hole and climb out of it. Most people I see when they are in a tough spot, tend to only fight for a while, like a person drowning. They struggle for a while and then slowly the elements will consume them because they either give up or don't know better.

It is one thing to know that one is in trouble and another thing to understand the mechanics of being in trouble. If you have an issue of the heart, then we go down to the source and find the cause of the heart issue.

In your case, you are now hurting because you have lost a pillar of support in which you bind to the feeling of love. Now under very normal circumstances, people will just say, "Time will heal all the pain, dear" which is what I will say too. But the truth is, that statement does not cure or heal the fundamental cause of the pain.

Now this might sound a bit off in phycological term, but the problem lies in not the lost of a pillar, in which time will allow you to find another pillar in the future, but the sheer fact that you made the pillar to be your center of the universe.

Nobody can survive alone, it is a given fact, but being alone does not mean that we will die either. To be so dependent on others that is as fragile as us is insane. Whatever that can happend to us can happend to them, these people that we put so much faith on are mere mortals. Thus the only sensible thing we can do are to share our lives with them, not live our lives around them.

A relationship of people is of growth, of sharing but most of all of understanding.

A relationship that promotes fear and anger is one that is sad.

I believe that people must first learn to be together in soul then the body. By being able to feel the bond of people within our souls, we can be more appreciative of what we have in our physical world. Plus a bond of soul is the one that allows people to grow together while learning to allow their body to grow apart. When I say apart, I mean by being able to be physically in difference places and not feel lost or hurt.

There are plenty more that I wish to say, but the fact is that, spunk dear, you must come to terms before any of the healing can occur. Only when you truly understand the cause of the pain can you free yourself from it.

Plus, if you look at the bright side of this episode, you now have an even more killer body ... 10KG!!!! ... god, I wish I could loose that much weight in my current condition. :) ...

Think happy thoughts and you will be able to fly again.

[spunkbubble]

I couldn't find this thread! :confused:

Found it now but now I've got to go. :blah:

[papadoc]

My heart is heavy on this night.
My love of loves has gone away.
She stayed only 4 days and left.
She had to go and I had to let her.
But that's the way of life.
Had I hung on to keep her in mine
I would have kept her from hers.
I could not be selfish about this.
I have found a great quality in giving.
As much as it may hurt sometimes,
I must let go.
So I did.
I feel better now.
:D
Spunkbubble...where are you?
Are you ok too?
:confused:

[spunkbubble]

That's a lovely poem...

I am fine.

I've redesigned my site (http://www.bittergirl.net) and kept to myself a bit.

The school holidays are almost over for me and then I have to start my last year of school - I'm so scared to screw it up. I really don't want to go. :( :eek: :confused:

[jns]

:eek:
I have half of the last year of school left.
I wonder what'll happen when I'm done with school..

[spunkbubble]

Last night I decided I'm going to be a secretary; at least temporarily.

I can type fast, write fast, be organised, be polite to people (clients). So I should be okay at it..

And just think; I used to scowl at people who said to me, "You should be a secretary if you can type like that!"

:D

[Huehuetenango]

i'm doing a university application as i type this, and i'm scared whitless

in less than six months i'm probalby going to be living away from home for the first time in my life, in a completely new city surrounded by ppl i don't know
hell LIVING with someone i dont' know

nothing wrong w being a secretary, spunk
my dad's secretary is a great lady, (and anyone makes ANY jokes about her and my dad, and i'm gonna get pissed)

[DJ ROACH]

bump *the sound of a head hitting the under side of a desk*


........i just droped my pencil under the desk and hit my head. ;)

ummm no pun huehue :D

get a job spunk, itll be a good thing for you to do. plus get you out and on to bigger and better things.

[papadoc]

bump *something I used to do before a night out*

.........sniffle sniffle......where's my Afrin nose spray???? ;)

Good idea Spunkbubble. :up:
If I were in a position to need a secretary
I would hire you in a heart beat.
If for no other reason,
than to have your bubbly personality around.
Good luck on that and let us know how it goes, ok?
:D

[DJ ROACH]

:rolleyes: ROTFLMAO :D
hey i dig your av papa

your sight is very cool spunk!

[lil vixen]

ahh someone sent me this forum cause I was bored today so I started reading thru it.
this whole bashin girls section caught my attention- as I am a girl
I personally think everyone who said something has valid points but your all off base.
what a girl really wants is for a guy to be his TRUE complete self ha!
no lil bad asses who pretend to be something they are not .....!!!!!
and no money or cell phones is not the answer either.
that all shows you have to compensate for that lack of cetain things maybe?
-shrug who knows,
but for myself honesty n being your self gets you every where you wanna go!!!!!!!!:)
oh and one other thing being a bastard to a girl just may get yer ass kicked -giggle

[papadoc]

originally posted by me on page 5
One other quality in a person that is being overlooked here...
is confidence.
If a person is confident in who they are,
confident in what they believe, how they feel,
then that shows from the inside to the outside.
You can tell a confident person the minute they walk in the door.
Not the arrogant, look at me, I'm better than you confidence.
But the one who shows confidence in a more humble way.
It takes time and experience to achieve.
But it's a quality that shines on first sight.
Hello there lil vixen http://www.plauder-smilies.de/happy/xyxwave.gif
Welcome to our little home.
I agree as you can see.
"Take me as I am or let me go...
I am not afraid"
btw...I'm from Marietta,Georgia originally.
There's a few regulars here from Georgia.
Anyway...have fun!!!
:D

[lil vixen]

well thanks :)
and what you said about the confidence is a really good point! but it has to be trus confidence not cockiness because that will get you know in my book its fake!

[jns]

Originally posted by lil vixen
what a girl really wants is for a guy to be his TRUE complete self ha!
no lil bad asses who pretend to be something they are not .....!!!!!
and no money or cell phones is not the answer either.
that all shows you have to compensate for that lack of cetain things maybe?
-shrug who knows,
but for myself honesty n being your self gets you every where you wanna go!!!!!!!!:)
oh and one other thing being a bastard to a girl just may get yer ass kicked -giggle
I am me.
I need not compensate for anything. :D
+ I'm nice. As in not-evil. Or something. :p

[lil vixen]

Originally posted by jns

I am me.
I need not compensate for anything. :D
+ I'm nice. As in not-evil. Or something. :p


thats good jns! its always good to be you

[jns]

Actually, being me is not always all that good. :(
Too many bad memories back there...
But that is a different story, and not to be shared at this place or at this time.
At least I'm going somewhere in life as it is now..

[lil vixen]

well then thats really good. :)

[spunkbubble]

Originally posted by papadoc
Good idea Spunkbubble. :up:
If I were in a position to need a secretary
I would hire you in a heart beat.
If for no other reason,
than to have your bubbly personality around.
Good luck on that and let us know how it goes, ok?
:D

So you don't need a secretary? :( :cry:

;)

I need to finish my last year of school first. I'm going to be seventeen in late February! :eek:

[izchan]

Yello people ... it has been sometime huh ... I thought the thread was ah ... well ... dead ... :)

and JNS good to see you alive and well ... you never really told me the ending of your story ... so did you or did you not tell the lady that you were madly in love with her?

vixen ... welcome to the club of the lonely souls ... :)

Hope to see more posting from you soon.

: Inner Child

Might be a light in the dark places
inside those corners of our heart
a scared child tears hanging upon hope
praying that an adult will come and save them

The older we get
the more scared our child inside scare
suffocating from lack of laughther
dying from unpopular opinion

Yet it is this child
that will save our life
where the child can see a better future
a time where people are actually nice
and not just with good acting skills

oh how I wish I could let my inner child live again
so that I can laugh like tommorow does not matter
and the past becomes just a memory
where the present rules supreme
a child with candy in hand
smiles of an angel
peace of mind
freedom at last

[Huehuetenango]

woah
that's amazing

you write that, man?

[izchan]

yes, I write quite a lot of stuff on this forum. There are many poets on the forum too .

visit the poetry thread that I started.
Another Artistic Thread - Poetry (http://forums.winamp.com/showthread.php?threadid=66255)

One of the best poets I know of in these threads are Nemesis and Jarsonic. Both are very talented.

Hope you can join in and have some fun.

Now back to our normal program.

[lil vixen]

thanks izchan
and great poem i loved it :)

[jns]

Originally posted by izchan
and JNS good to see you alive and well ... you never really told me the ending of your story ... so did you or did you not tell the lady that you were madly in love with her?

Uhm.. trying.. :]

[fwgx]

Well I'm going down to meet my girl next Friday/Saturday for the first time. I'm looking forward to it but will be bricking it a lot when on the train and everything. We get along so well on the phone that I'm sure that will translate into real life too. Then she'll freak about how lamely tall I am and how funny looking i am. I'll be my usual sweet self (:confused:) and we'll live hapily ever after :). Well that's the plan. Why do the best people live so bloody far away?

[papadoc]

From an old hand who's been writing poems, songs and stories,
for a long time, I think we have allot of really great poets here.
Izchan is one of those at the top of the list.
Keep up the great work Izchan.
:):up:

[Merlin]

Originally posted by Phily Baby
Then she'll freak about how lamely tall I am and how funny looking i am. I'll be my usual sweet self and we'll live hapily ever after

Then she'll join the winamp forums, and ask why the hell you've got a woman's arse as your avatar. I may ask the same question...

As for the best people living far away, they don't. You live in the wrong place.

[fwgx]

Originally posted by MerlinTheWizard


Then she'll join the winamp forums, and ask why the hell you've got a woman's arse as your avatar. I may ask the same question...

As for the best people living far away, they don't. You live in the wrong place. I'll try keep her away from here so she doesn't know. And I meant I lived too far away not her. ;) :D

[izchan]

Originally posted by papadoc
From an old hand who's been writing poems, songs and stories,
for a long time, I think we have allot of really great poets here.
Izchan is one of those at the top of the list.
Keep up the great work Izchan.
:):up:

Thank Papadoc, that means alot coming from you.

I yet trying to write something that can truly touch my soul from inside out. Most of my words are quite superficial, as in it is easily forgotten, I aim to write poems that will touch people so deep inside of them that they never knew existed.

A far fetch goal but one that I am determined to go towards.

Do you know the feeling that is in you when someone quotes your line in public and using it as a method of convincing others? The one that comes to mind most is 'The Road Less Traveled' ... how I wish my work could be recognized to that extent.

Again, thanks for the encouragement.

I hope to post more so that I can improve, and you guys will have to bare with my bad poetry for some time to come.

[spunkbubble]

*grins*

I have news... ;)

[papadoc]

originally posted by spunkbubble
*grins*

I have news... ;)
Well hello my long lost spark of light.
I have missed you.
On a day when I'm finding it hard to stick around here,
when nothing seems to interest me, except to say happy birthday
to Missy's son, you pop in with a whisper of news.
I just know it's good news.
:D

[spunkbubble]

Well I don't want to say anything yet... Might jinx it. :down:

Right now, I'm off to change my signature ;).

[spunkbubble]

Old sig:

I've been down this road and back again,
Learned my lesson and it was that love is not my friend.

Oh and look at this screenshot I took ;) .

[ujay]

Runs around widdershins three times repeating mantra, to protect papadoc from evil. :)

UJ

[izchan]

Spunk baby,
Nice to see you so happy again ... :) ... miss that cheerful smile of yours.

I thought this thread was coming to and end, now I see I hope a light of it reviving again ... :)

[papadoc]

:eek: OMG...scary post number!!!
Please ujay take care of me and sing your mantra loud.
:D
Spunkbubble...I'll keep checking back.
Whatever is going on, my dear, I wish you the best of luck.
If anyone in this world deserves the best it's you.
:):up:
Hey izchan http://www.plauder-smilies.de/wave.gif
This thread has a heart and a soul, and will never die.
Not as long as you, spunkbubble, and everyone else that
drops by from time to time, are around.
For here posts true friends, that time apart cannot weaken.

[spunkbubble]

*sighs happily*

I promise, I'll tell you what's happening soon! Just later... After I somehow have managed to not mess up. *nervous*

[jns]

Originally posted by spunkbubble
Oh and look at this screenshot I took ;) .
omfg! :eek:
rofl! :p
My ppd was 6.66 the other day. I think I might've taken a screenshot.. not sure, though.

Ohoh, also: I got a gf now! :D
I don't think she's the downfall of society, but we'll see about that.. :p

[spunkbubble]

Well it looks like I didn't screw up... Well, at least not yet.

Basically I told the guy I really like ... Well, that I like him.

In a text message!!!!

hahahah

Anyway

He said he "feels the same".

Maybe things are finally going to start looking up. I've been talking to him for months on MSN almost every night and we met last month irl... the only problem is he lives in another state and he's back home now :(.

So I don't know what happens now, but hopefully something... Oh and he's kind of shorter than me, which goes against my "No Guys Shorter Than Me" rule I used to have. Which was kinda silly and stuff but I used to feel all insecure about my height (which isn't that huge or anything but you know). Anyway I feel like not so insecure now, especially since he replied that he likes me back and stuff.

Well my friend said he did, but you know, you can't FULLY believe it's true until the guy says it for himself, you know?

He's a year older than me, we're both in our final year of school. So what happens now is.. Well I don't know I guess we wait and see? :)

So that's my news.

I'm excited!!! :D

[izchan]

Congrates spunk.

Nice rebound.

Take care.

use vigilance.

Happy for you.

[jns]

I'm confuuused! :(
Isisis she too young for me?
I, I, I don't know..

:igor:

[spunkbubble]

What's the age difference, jns???

Age is just a number...

*

You know, this thread isn't going to die as long as we all hang around. I've gotten almost all of my 180+ posts in this one thread! :eek:

[izchan]

I have only this poem to say to all those that is questioning.

: The confusing factor

What is this obession about age
does a old man make a better lover?
or does a young girl a better doll?
Why is it so important to get the number right?
does tha single digit makes me stupid?
and the tripple digit makes you god?

It is all inside
what we are as a person
and what we do as a man
what has anything else to do with it
why even confuse ourselves with the questions

Maybe it is just the old telling the young
that if you grow older your will understand
we confuse ourselves that age makes a man wiser
even though the braincells starts dying by 20

give me one good reason
why I should love a woman 12 years younger
and not one that is 4 years older?
is the age ever a factor in life?
does it make a difference?

Just ask yourself one simple question
do you or do you not love the other
if the answer is positive
then go and live a life
if not go out and find one

The answers are in the things we share
and not the things we say we missed
just tell those that are there
what you feel inside
because you won't know
when the sun sets down
will they be a tommorow to cry for

Go on now and live some
don't ask the all these strange questions
and blunder through these journeys
just tell yourself one thing
it is better to have love and lost
than never to have loved before

[jns]

Originally posted by spunkbubble
What's the age difference, jns???
I'm 19, she's 15.
Personally, I find it to be quite a difference..
I'm confused.. Uuhhh.

The scariest thing is the way she seems to change..
I just don't know if this is right..... :cry:

[izchan]

when you say change, what do you mean?

MUTATE?
FLUCUTATE?

or mentally having a hard time deciding what she wants to be?

If it is the last case, then you should be ok, because you two are in an age of change or difinition.

Around this time, you will slowly decide who and what you are for the near future. Not saying that you will not change again in the future, it is just that whatever you decide now will hold a strong decision factor in whatever that you do when you are in a mature state of mind.

[NRen2k5]

She's 15? You lucky son of a gun...

[spunkbubble]

Don't expect ANY of this to make sense but....

*squeals*

I am so so so so wickedly happy!

*hugs self*

I can't believe I dwelled in misery so long...If only I'd opened my eyes sooner! *spins around and gets dizzy*

[spunkbubble]

Hey it made more sense than I thought it would :eek:.

[fwgx]

Same age diff here too jns. Hasn't been a problem yet. I felt the same as you at the start but everything has just gone so well, we're best friends and she's really great. The fact I don't get too see her much (as in not yet) has made that easier because all we can base each other on is personality, which in the end, as the poem above says, is all that matters.

Good luck with it and go with the flow. If it feels right and good then stick with it. God knows we don't want another jns saga :p :D

[jns]

Okay, she was kind of what you would call a bitch. She's dumped now.
Or something.

[fwgx]

This calls for -> "Arse"

:(

[jns]

Yeah, among others.
Problem with me is: I'm too nice. :(
After she hung up on me I wasn't all that nice, though.. don't even remember all the things I said. Oh well.
Things will be better. They must be. :rolleyes:

[izchan]

And yet a bold new future is formed.

Nice going spunk.

Sorry that you have to go through the shits before you can find your pearl JNS. But if life give you shit, you throw it back.

And the Saga continues ...

</star war music playing in the back>

[jns]

Originally posted by izchan
Sorry that you have to go through the shits before you can find your pearl JNS. But if life give you shit, you throw it back.
Yes, and maybe I migth've learned to listen the my hearts voice now.. :blah:

[papadoc]

Hey Spunkbubble...
A little Valentine's Day gift for you...
http://a80.g.akamai.net/f/80/71/6h/www.ftd.com/pics/products/C4-821P.jpg
...because your'e special to allot of us here.
Hope you have a great day!!!

[spunkbubble]

Originally posted by papadoc
Hey Spunkbubble...
A little Valentine's Day gift for you...
http://a80.g.akamai.net/f/80/71/6h/www.ftd.com/pics/products/C4-821P.jpg
...because your'e special to allot of us here.
Hope you have a great day!!!

Awwww... :o

Thanks papadoc!! *kiss on cheek*

...

How was everybody else's V-Day? :)

[jns]

I got no such things. :(

[fwgx]

I sent my g/f a nice red rose with a little note about how I love her. I didn't get to be with her :(. We did have a really amazing chat on the phone though, we get on too well :). She loved the rose too which was good, thank the lord for lastminute.com

[papadoc]

Sometimes 1 single red rose means more than a dozen.
Most of the time that's what I did too Phily Baby.

My favorite thing to do would be to send or give
a girlfriend a single rose for no reason at all,
other than to say hello, thinking of you, and you
deserve this just because you are who you are.
I'd do this on a weekday, not a holiday, and as a surprise.
What fun..

[izchan]

I do it for the sheer fact that I miss her everytime I am not with her.

but most of all, I do it because I can't tell her how much I love her, they have not invented a word for it yet.

[fwgx]

Originally posted by papadoc
Sometimes 1 single red rose means more than a dozen.That's what I think too. They are bloody expensive, worth it though :)

[papadoc]

Hey Spunkbubble...
Hope your'e still wickedly happy!!!:D
Please pm me with your e-mail when you check in here again,
or e-mail me, so we can keep in touch.
I'm pretty much done here, shot out, and basically had it.
Thanks my special spunkbubbly friend.

/me waves...http://home.earthlink.net/~dewarjr/wavey.gif...goodbye

[izchan]

papadoc.

When you say you are done, you mean the thread of the forum itself?

anyway, just so we can still keep in contact.

the following is my email

izchan@yahoo.com

you can yms me using my nicl izchan ...

if not you can try liteheart76 at msn mesenger.

either one will be open everyday ... :)

[Merlin]

Originally posted by papadoc
I'm pretty much done here, shot out, and basically had it.

:hang: Aw, man! I hate it when people leave, especially respected members of the community! Whatever I say prolly won't change your mind, but consider things carefully, eh? If you do leave, even though I've not been here long, I'll miss your intelligent wit and contributions to the forums' topical debates. :(

Adios.
-Andy.

[jns]

If you leave, I hope it won't be for good. :cry:

[spunkbubble]

Oh, papadoc, don't go! *sniffles*

I will PM you all my contact info... :(

[papadoc]

Thanks izchan, :Merlin:, and jns.
I'm just really burned out here (the forums) right now.
I need a break.

I got it spunkbubble...thanks!!!
Later...http://home.earthlink.net/~dewarjr/wavey.gif

[jns]

Good to hear you're not leaving forever, that it's only for a break.
Else it would be a terrible loss.

[2x100W=:o)]

Hi1 Just trying,, how it works.:D

[jns]

Originally posted by 2x100W=:o)
Hi1 Just trying,, how it works.:D
Welcome to the forums!
Hope we'll enjoy your stay! :D:igor:;)

[spunkbubble]

Originally posted by papadoc
I got it spunkbubble...thanks!!!
Later...http://home.earthlink.net/~dewarjr/wavey.gif

Good :D.

[izchan]

what did you send to pap, spunk?

Is it your beautiful smiles?
if so I want a copy too .... :)

[izchan]

I just read my first ever post in this forum, which was in this thread. And I felt that between the time of that post and the one that I am doing now. I have grown to be a different person in that short amount of time.

I have made some hard decisions in my life. And I have met with numerous accidents along the way.

I have also realized that I am very fortunate to have found this place as a place of solace and comfort.

But most of all I am grateful that I have found a place of friendship.

Is woman the bane of the world?

Does woman make the world fall apart?

I still don't know that answer.

But it will be hell if they were not in my life.

Just wanted to send this out to whoever is listening.

Your friend.
Isaac

[fwgx]

I got to go see Sian on Saturday!!! Woohoo! I went all the way down to Cardiff on the train which took 3.5 hours and missed one so had to wait 1.5 for another in the freezing cold. The train was freezing cold too. In the end I spent about 6 hours outsite in the freezing cold :(. Then I found her at the station, she didn't look like what I really expected but she looked great. We went to Burger King for some food for me (word of warning, never goto Burger King if your trying to impress with eating manners!) Then we walked around a park and sat in a tree for a bit which was cool. She's just the same as she is on the phone which I wasn't expecting but was glad for. We had such a laugh :). Then I forced her to let me taker her to the cinema to see a film. We ended up holding hands which was all very new to me and very cool. Somewhat fortunate too because when walking around later it was so cold we had to. Then we had to part company and leave, we had a big hug and a peck on the cheek (God I wish I'd kissed her properly but I couldn't find the right time :mad:) Then another long journey home.

Conclusion on first ever date -> Very good if a little chilly. Now if I didn't spend £190ish quid over those few days i'd be there a lot :).

[spunkbubble]

I miss Papadoc :( :cry: ...

Thought I'd drop in and see what's going on.

Phily Baby... Don't you think that having your significant other living away from you, in another state or city or whatever, makes you appreciate them more? I wonder if I'd take him for granted if he were here, and not appreciate him so much? It's something I often think about. "Distance makes the heart grow fonder.." Or whatever that saying is - it's so true!

Anyway, my newfound relationship is having a few little problems, but that's normal - right? :(

[spunkbubble]

Originally posted by NRen2k5
She's 15? You lucky son of a gun...

I'm not sure I understand that statement. What's so exciting about her being fifteen?

Actually! Talking about age...It was my birthday yesterday, I'm 17 now :D.

[izchan]

AND A HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SPUNK ... ;)

And now ... Philly my man, that was way good for a first date .. :) ... and I agree on the BK thing, it is not one of the more impresionable place for eating habits to be shown. as for the cash part, there is always the phone. Just keep it up, she sounds like a sweet lady.

spunk, I think we have not had a decent chat for ages.

How are you my friend?

Trouble of the heart? Well ... if you really want or need to vent, you know where to come to ... :)

don't worry about, it, relationships will always have their share of troubles, it is part of an ongoing process. If your relationship is picture perfect, that is a problem by itself, because it is not normal .. :) ... but we do try to keep the issues to a minimal. I don't mind having arguments over matters that helps build the bond.
:confused:
figths over which video to watch is one of my all time favourite sport, in which I always opt to loose at the end, because I like to see her smug face when she best me in the subject. :) .. hey strange as it might be, but it works for me ... :blah: :up:

Ah .. no more dispencing my thoughts, I think I hear a complaint about my post being too long ... :cry: ... oh ... I rant ... :o ... :igor: ... :weird: .... :D

Talk to you guys later.

[Merlin]

Originally posted by spunkbubble
What's so exciting about her being fifteen?Something about experience. I 'met' two sixteen yr old girls last year alone (first base only, they're too young for anything else) and it was quite unlike anything else. Wouldn't want to go any younger than that, of course.

Actually! Talking about age...It was my birthday yesterday, I'm 17 now :D. Happy Birthday for yesterday!

izchan - that's not long. You should post more, dude! :)

[izchan]

Thank you merlin for your kind encouragement.
who am I to disagree withe the greatest wizard of all time. :D
And so I shall ... and so I shall


Thought that it might be appropriate for this

: And So I Shall

As rain falls upon the roof tops
of my ever small shelther
the world encourages us to come out
and feel little more
so to live a little more

The place that I call home
small as it might be
it is just feels safe for me
to run naked without thought of discrepencies
yet the world beckons on
come out now
come and see
what is so wonderfull to begin with
a new idea
a new begining
come and see now
come and see

so timidly I poke my head out
and tell my self that I will grow up now
listen to new songs
and read new books
and build myself up a little higher
and be a little better
so as the rain drops upon my face
I feel a little more
and so I shall
and so I shall

Here is something for you guys to enjoy ... :)

[spunkbubble]

Maybe it's just me; but money, looks, experience don't mean anything to me. I'm the kind of person who meets someone really nice; and fails to see them as anything but gorgeous from then on.

I have a question for the guys here... If you like a girl; do you tell her? I mean, if she's your gf, do you express your feelings to her a lot; compliment her...???

[izchan]

Depends if the guy reads alot of CLEO ... :)


just joking.

It all depends on the person's characther.

some boys will say how they feel and even cry publicly.

Some will hide and make damm sure no one finds out how they feel.

but most of all, boys will be boys and they will do what boys will do. They will most probably face the challenge head on..

But expressing feelings is one of those obstacles that differentiates, the boys from the man.

The man have nothing to hide, and will say what he feels and means.

The boys will most probably hide and mask what he thinks is his weakness.

Man flaunts them ... and tries very hard to improve it.

So it all depends on your bf ... :) ... is he a Man or a Boy ...

note: When I say man and boy, I mean the maturity level, and not the age. :) .. ok?

hope this helps.

[spunkbubble]

Don't feel too good anymore.

[izchan]

oh .. I am sorry I upset you spunk dear.

I will keep my opinion to myself next time.

Do not want to see you not happy.

[fwgx]

I'm sorry bubble, hope things get better soon.

About telling about feelings, I tell her all the time. She never believes me but I still tell her. She's strange sometimes and gets depressed a lot so I cheer her up and have a joke and a laugh together. She's adamant that she's ugly and that I don't need to join a gym, both aren't true but we have a laugh about it :).

Hope everyone's happy and well in their relationships

Phily B your new queen.

[Merlin]

Once I've overcome the emotional stumbling block that is initially expressing my emotion, and she responds positively, then I can say what I feel as often as I see fit.

Phily - why does your CT read "Forum Queen"? Your choice, or an hilarious joke by the appropriate Mod?

[fwgx]

As long as I feel comfortable with someone, I feel like I can tell them a lot of things I would usually keep to myself. As long as I feel comfortable and they are ok with me telling them these things that's cool. I haven't had a lot of people I could really trust or call a true friend in my life but at the moment I could tell Sian anything and she'd listen at least, take me for what I am and be cool with that. I think i'm quite open with people I trust so I usually say what I think, as lomg as it isn't offensive towards someone.

Out of interest how would you say Sian? My sister took the piss because I used to say it Si-ann, when it's pronounced Sharn. Grrr, bloody sisters.

[Merlin]

I'd say "Sharn" because my mate's ex is called that, so I know ;)

[spunkbubble]

I'm just kinda worried 'cos he doesn't tell me how he feels too often, or pay too many compliments; that kind of thing... :(

Maybe I'm just overreacting.

I like him so much! :)

[spunkbubble]

the end...


Forget all that happy shit I said.

[izchan]

Sorry to hear about that spunk.

[spunkbubble]

Yeah, well...

[fwgx]

:(

[izchan]

Today I found out that I was alive.
Wrote this down and thought that I will share with you all.

: I love you
Never a day passes by
without me thanking GOD
for giving me the chance to love you

Not in a million life times
will I give up this bond we share
for it is the shining star
in my darkest hour
which lead me to a new found strength
moving on to a life better

I only wish I could do more
to tell you what I really feel inside
filled up with nothing else but your smiles
and dreaming about nothing but you
If only you can see inside of me
you will know and understand
you are the only reason that I am

This is not to belittle what we are feeling when we are sad, but to make us know that when we found something that is right, cherish them with all that you have. Even if tommorow never comes, atleast you know that today you will have cherished what you have now.

take heart ... there is always someone waiting for you.

[spunkbubble]

Words aren't enough, you know? Not enough to tell someone how you feel, they don't hold the depth. "I love you" is said too often, too easily these days. It's thrown around too frequently, which belittles the meaning... Hmm, I don't know. Maybe it doesn't exist. *shrugs*

[spunkbubble]

Has everyone forgotten this topic now?

:(

[fwgx]

Nope we're still all here, well I am at least. I've been a bit busy with uni work and the like.

Sian's mum now wants to come along if we meet on her birthday :( (she doesn't know we've already met) and Sian doesn't want that at all. She's saying we wont meet again if her mum insists on it either. I'm crossing my fingers and hoping something can be worked out. I don't mind meeting her mum if it's just briefly and we can go off and do our own thing then.

I wish you all the best Bubble and hope things are going as well as they can. :)

[izchan]

I know it might not be as appropriate .. but hey .. this is thread about woman and the downfall of man ... :)

: if not you
If not you
I do not what else is there
for me to look forward to every morning
and every evening when the sun goes down

If not you
what else is there for me to do
when I have all the money and time
with only loneliness sleeping by my side

If not you
I would not have known what a fool that I am
where you tell me that it was me that made things right
and I am the reason that you smile
if not you I will have never found mine


As for phil ... :) .. good luck ...

hey spunk I am still around ... :) ... just not posting as often because I no longer have internet access on my NEW work place ... :)

Talk to you guys later.

[spunkbubble]

Originally posted by Phily Baby
Nope we're still all here, well I am at least. I've been a bit busy with uni work and the like.

Sian's mum now wants to come along if we meet on her birthday :( (she doesn't know we've already met) and Sian doesn't want that at all. She's saying we wont meet again if her mum insists on it either. I'm crossing my fingers and hoping something can be worked out. I don't mind meeting her mum if it's just briefly and we can go off and do our own thing then.

I wish you all the best Bubble and hope things are going as well as they can. :)


Hmm... How old is Sian? (You may have said so before and I've forgotten; sorry if I have :)). Why doesn't Sian want you to meet her mum? Just nerves or something?

Well, I hope this all goes well for you, and falls into place!!!

*

Meanwhile, I'm still with Michael...It's going well :). Really, fabulously, well :D.

[fwgx]

She's 15 (16 in a few weeks) and I'm 19. She doesn't want to be embarrased by her mum I think, understandable, but a pain in the arse no less. Oh and on her birthday I'll be back for easter so if we meet it's either a very long way for either of us (~7-8hrs) or meet in the middle in Nottingham where I am during term time. Gawd.

[jns]

Oh god. I'm surrounded by non-singles. :rolleyes:
I have to find me something. :igor:

[spunkbubble]

I'm happy. :D :D :D

[jns]

Well. I'm not. At the moment. :(
Darn.

[izchan]

I am somewhere in between.

Hoping that someday, I can give more love to her than I do today ... :)

[jns]

Grrah! Stop being so happy all around me! :mad::(

[fwgx]

Well I might be off to Cardiff on tuesday :D w00t!

Going out for a meal on a double date I think. :up:

[spunkbubble]

Originally posted by jns
Grrah! Stop being so happy all around me! :mad::(

Well...I'm not anymore.

*sigh*

looks like it's over, guys...

[c2R]

Oh well, join the club!

Still, I don't think it's healthy to be going around happy left right and center... :weird:

[fwgx]

Well Tuesday look off because she's at school that day and I'l twice as far away as I was when I'm at uni :(. Guess I'll just sen here a card and something else. What the heck do you get girls for their birthday? first thing I see I guess. :igor:

[jns]

Originally posted by Phily Baby
Well Tuesday look off because she's at school that day and I'l twice as far away as I was when I'm at uni :(. Guess I'll just sen here a card and something else. What the heck do you get girls for their birthday? first thing I see I guess. :igor:
Get something kinky :igor:

[izchan]

Here is something that you might do ... :)

: So what do I do?
So what do I do
when its her birthday
should I just give her a kiss?
or my eternal love?

So what do I do
when its our aniversary
I already gave her my life
what else is left to give?

So what do I do
when we celebrate our 70 years together
I already gave her all that I have
what else can I give to keep her forever

So what do I do
when she has finally left for heaven
My soul had flown along with her
I am lost without her voice
I will be lost without her care

So I made promise to myself
that I will love her to last me a thousand lifetimes
as when the time comes for her to leave
I will be able to go on
and I will be able to bath in her memory
for then be content untill my life ends

[spunkbubble]

What a prick! Boys are so bad for your health! :mad: :mad: :mad:


Okay, so he disappeared for 2 weeks. Then he finally comes on & acts all cool towards me. I tell him I missed him he just says 'oh okay' and starts talking about something else. All he says about the time we haven't communicated is 'long time no see'. Then he says 'brb', and then he disappears offline and doesn't come back. Haven't seen him since.

I know he wants to break up with me, so why doesn't he just go ahead and do it? Makes me so furious! What a gutless creep; can't even face me and be upfront. I'm guessing he wants to make it so I dump him, you know, so he doesn't have to. But, no matter what he throws my way, I refuse to break up with him even though I have personally acknowledged we're through - it's what he wants and I know it. But, no, screw him! He can come and tell me himself. I'm not doing it. It's such a nasty, vicious thing to do though. Might not seem like it, but it is.

[jns]

You know.. breaking up is one of the hardest things to do.. at least for a male.. at least for me.
Last time I realised something about myself, after being treated like shit, I'm too nice. It was still not easy to dump her, after what she did, but at last I managed to do it, but it was not easy.
I'm not trying to protect someone I don't know, I'm just sharing my own self, my own experiences.
Oh. What I realised? - I'm too nice. :(

[izchan]

Breakups ...

Had my share of it ...

Never really liked it ...

not even when I am the one dishing it out ...

But at the end ... it is between me the other party ...

it is irrelevant on what others think ...

I was even accused of being a jackass because I told a girl that I no longer feel much between us, and that we should think about it.

Now just to let the others know ... it hurts more to be the one leaving than the one staying behind ... why? Because ... instead of just being single again suddenly, we bare the burden of doing something that might prove to be the biggest mistake of our life.

Now with that as an end note ...

spunk ... go kick his ass ... :)

[fwgx]

I got me train ticket fot Saturday! So I'm off to see her again at last :) I am a very happy bunny. Well at least she can't say she doesn't want to meet me now coz it's too late. Well I'm very excited but have a lot of work to do upto then so it will be a big relief to see her and relax again. Now this time I want to kiss her but will probably bottle it and get way too nervous. Wish me luck.

I hope everyone else's love lives are good.:)

[flip314]

dude. this thread was old the last time I checked here a few months ago.

checking dates, we've only got less than 2 more weeks until this thread is a year long.

[jns]

Originally posted by flip314
longest thread ever?
Probably not.

[fwgx]

Well I kissed her, or she kissed me first. We were laying shivering cold and wet in a tree in each others arms (yes it is possible). It was good :).

But now I'm back home! :mad:

[izchan]

There are better reasons for being cold and wet ... being able to kiss your dream girl is one of them.

Congrates man.

[simon snowflake]

Originally posted by flip314
dude. this thread was old the last time I checked here a few months ago.

checking dates, we've only got less than 2 more weeks until this thread is a year long.

then someone lock it up fast, don't wanna have old stuff around here.
LOL

I think the what mp3 are you playing thread is longer