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Sabine Klare · 24th October 2012, 22:30

You're right, Warrior of the Light...
I'm not a slave for the others. Suddenly I got an unannounced visit, when I wanted to do other things. It had happened so many times. And aggressive representatives had rang the door very often. They wanted to force me to sign gag agreements. I refused, of course, and they threatened me. But I don't go to the door anymore, I don't open the door anymore, if I hear a ringing and I didn't make an appointment before. I myself can decide, who can visit me to which time and who cannot visit me to which time, the others cannot decide, when I have to recieve a visit, they have no rights to dictate my life...
Today I had a telephone call with the supervisor of my mother again. She had brought the bad news to my mother into the nursing home today. The letter came already 2 days ago: The property management has terminated the lease agreement with my mother. She is not allowed anymore to return into her old apartment, where she had lived for 47 years (and I myself since my birth, I'm 46 now). The neighbors, who wanted to get rid off my mother/parents since 21 years, have success now. It was the fire in her apartment this Summer, why this part of my life has ended forever (also this part of my mother's life)...
Maybe I've a "Burn-Out-Syndrome". I don't feel very good today, and I'm not in the mood for the music now, because I've lost my homeland of my childhood with all my memories forever. I had also already "Dark Times", where I wanted to hurt myself (the last weeks of my father until the 6th March 2003, when I had known already, he would die very soon). I didn't do that, and I will never do that (I promise), but I can understand other people, who are doing that...
Will I ever escape from the darkness? I don't know that anymore...

24th October 2012, 22:30	#16
Sabine Klare Major Dude Join Date: Nov 2010 Location: Berlin, Germany Posts: 1,082	You're right, Warrior of the Light... I'm not a slave for the others. Suddenly I got an unannounced visit, when I wanted to do other things. It had happened so many times. And aggressive representatives had rang the door very often. They wanted to force me to sign gag agreements. I refused, of course, and they threatened me. But I don't go to the door anymore, I don't open the door anymore, if I hear a ringing and I didn't make an appointment before. I myself can decide, who can visit me to which time and who cannot visit me to which time, the others cannot decide, when I have to recieve a visit, they have no rights to dictate my life... Today I had a telephone call with the supervisor of my mother again. She had brought the bad news to my mother into the nursing home today. The letter came already 2 days ago: The property management has terminated the lease agreement with my mother. She is not allowed anymore to return into her old apartment, where she had lived for 47 years (and I myself since my birth, I'm 46 now). The neighbors, who wanted to get rid off my mother/parents since 21 years, have success now. It was the fire in her apartment this Summer, why this part of my life has ended forever (also this part of my mother's life)... Maybe I've a "Burn-Out-Syndrome". I don't feel very good today, and I'm not in the mood for the music now, because I've lost my homeland of my childhood with all my memories forever. I had also already "Dark Times", where I wanted to hurt myself (the last weeks of my father until the 6th March 2003, when I had known already, he would die very soon). I didn't do that, and I will never do that (I promise), but I can understand other people, who are doing that... Will I ever escape from the darkness? I don't know that anymore...