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This sounds like my life until about a year ago. Just do the best you can. If you mess it up, and you will, don't feel too bad. Chances are nobody would have done any better.
You sound like you are coming to a point pretty soon where nothing you do will matter. I came to that point with my mom. She got so messed up she didn't know who I was anymore. I couldn't get a smile out of her anymore. And you find out those emergencies you dealt with for so many years aren't emergencies anymore. That has it's own bit of pain. That what you do doesn't really matter anymore. That was hard for me. I came along and saved the day so many times. Then one day it didn't matter. It might have been the hardest thing feeling helpless and wishing for a time when I could make a difference.
If it helps, I think God has some mercy on us when we are really ill. I know some times when my mom enjoyed really poor health, she didn't remember it or feel it at the time. I really think a lot of times it looks worse than it is. I know my mom didn't feel as bad as she was. Her end looked horrible. I don't think she felt it much.
You can be your own worse enemy in a situation like this. You're going from a situation where you are making a difference to a stage where it doesn't matter. Recognize that and re-prioritize. You could start fixing all those things in your own life you didn't have time to do.
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