[Sabine Klare]

The financial situations become worse and worse. Many people commit suicide because of financial problems. I had known an older woman for 3 years. Suddenly she was dead. A well-known actress was 4 years younger than me. She was pushed onto the siding by the regisseurs and she didn't know anymore how to pay the next rent. Then she made her decision.

I don't want to make debts, before I leave this planet. I would be glad, if I could stay without debts. But a music dealer said: "If You want to have success, You have to make also debts!". He thinks like a businessman, although he had to move with his record shop because of a new landlord, and later he had to close his shop forever, because the sales were not good anymore. We know him since 20 years. The times are gone when the sales of the record shops were still good.

If You cannot be 100% sure, that the other family members are sympathetic to You, You need to ensure that they do not have the opportunity to get birth and death certificates from You, because with these certificates they can cause the deletion of Your accounts, also against your sake. Maybe you can find a person of your trust, and You can give this person a power of attorney, so that this person can act as desired after Your death. The same applies to the burial.

The authorities had to pay for a coffin, when Frank's grandmother had died. Frank had turned down the heritage. But laws are always changed. Maybe it is not possible anymore to turn down the heritage some day, and maybe we can be buried with an urn against our sake.

Our artist-colleague had made many recordings and music sessions, also tegether with many other musicians. We were over 50 guests, when he was buried. Songs with his voice were played, also, when we all walked out of the chapel. It was so weird. When someone else was buried, we had to sing church songs, and I was not in the mood to sing.

Frank and I want to be buried without music, but with a coffin. My parents wanted to be buried without a priest in the closest family circle. My father's teacher-colleagues wanted to attend to the burial, too, and we gave our okay, but also the former neighbors came, although they were not welcome. They didn't come for the last honorable prove, they had already the next nasty plans, after they tried to get rid off my diseased parents without success for 12 years. After 9 further years the management for the houses had terminated the lease agreement contract with my mother. And we don't want to see the former nasty neighbors on my mother's burial. The cemetery contract with the double grave had been made already before my father's death.

A death fear can paralyze an artist in creativity, or a death fear can spur creativity in an artist. Another artist had processed all incomplete projects and he had finished all. 1986 I made my very difficult recordings, before the disaster in Chernobyl came. My depressions and my death fears came, too. The people were not recommended to eat the mushrooms from the woods, but 2 friends of my parents did that. They came with their own opinion: "We all have to die some day, then we can eat also the mushrooms from the woods!".

Maybe they were right. I myself also wouldn't let me dictate, what I am allowed to eat and drink and what I am not allowed. Beer and sweets, this is part of a life...