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Old 19th June 2013, 23:26   #1
Sabine Klare
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Do I have too much fears?

I wanted to open this thread already last week...
Am I only a very fearful hare? I have discovered, that my fears are getting bigger and bigger...
Last week I had a date, I was forced to go outside. I was near my tears, I wanted to cry. I didn't want to go outside, because I cannot be sure anymore, that I will find our leased apartment in the same good condition, how I have left it. Maybe I have my fears also, because I have very often physical weakness and nausea. I had the date with the doctor, and she told me "You have to fight against Your fears. You have to go also outside. You have to do it very often. Maybe You need talking therapies."...
Frank and I have made many bad experiences in our life, too much...
January 2006, when it was very cold, we wanted to do many things early in the morning. Suddenly there was a pipe break in the apartment above. The neighbor wasn't at home. Fortunately Frank and I were at home, and the apartments below stayed dry. But it wasn't possible anymore for us to live in the old apartment due to this water damage...
Also a fire can suddenly happen. It didn't happen to us, but it had happened to my mother last year, in June 2012 (she has to live in a nursing home now). That was very close to us, it was directly in our family. Nothing is the same anymore since that fire...
We have been influenced by the fact, we can never have a peaceful feeling again, if one of us or we both have to go outside. I have to fight against my fears, it is an inner battle...

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