Don't you guys miss childhood?

[saturnus]

I do.
I miss the mystery.
The fear of monsters,
lurking beneath the bed,
i used to check if they were there,
I miss my parents,
the UNCONDITIONAL love,
the fear of God's punishment,
the local school,
the drawing, the dreaming,
the summer vacations,
the feeling of being,
being an individual,
of being an equal,
the fantasy,
the exploring,
cartoons,
at 7 a.m. in the morning,
but most of all i miss the ability,
the ability to feel love, anger, fear,
envy, lust, joy and sadness.
Feelings that are not allowed.
I miss the smile,
I miss the tear,
I miss myself most of all.

And then you find out,
that reality is more than being real,
that life evolves around living,
living up to the highest potential,
a job, a second car, a second wife,
money, fame, a career, a driver's license.
Am i the only one to question?
To question reality and consider
Change?

Every day I wake up, feeling horrible about this world,
and my own lack of power to change it for the better.
To change it back to the world that is my childhood.