Please Read: I Don't wanna' lose my house

[teh Nightwing]

This is a little long but PLEASE read it.
So...I've been through a really rough year. At the beginning of 2003 I got a job at a local jail, as a property clerk. I did a great job, and all the cops, sergents, liutenants, and other staff liked me....except for this one lady. So, she started spreading rumors that I was stealing jewelry, and stuff like that, from inmates personal property. Of course this was a lie, but according to sheriff's office rules, if anything like that is mentioned, and stuff comes up missing....you lose your job. So...naturally stuff comes up missing, being a PRISON PROPERTY ROOM! The prison was built to hold 896 inmates, and there were about 1350 in there at the time. Stuff was constantly getting lost, and it started way before I started working there, according to other people I got along with there. So...I lost my job.
After that, in July, I started working for a company which has promised me a very good salary, but they needed help starting up the business side of it. So I spend months developing their web page, and basically became the media director. This company has been around for years and is a HUGE worldwide helper of poor people. So, the government was going to write the company a grant, for the public service we had done, and so we could buy offices, and start being a more organized business. The president of the organization promised me a paycheck within a month of getting hired.....yet.....here I am 6 months later and I still haven't been paid. I was working like 60 hours a week for this company, and they keep saying "next week we have some money coming in" and....it keeps being told to us :next week! next week!" So....I wonder when next week will come.
I have drained my life savings on paying bills, and paying hospital and doctor bills for my new son. I have gotten sick, but can't affor a doctor. I am having horrible withdrawl symptoms from trying to quit an antidepressant (*****) I was prescribed, but have run out of. ***** is going to be pulled from the market soon because of it's major side-effects. Search google for ***** side effects. It's pretty horrible.
So now I'm out of money, and physically in too much pain to leave the house on most days, due to the withdrawls. My house payment was due 3 days ago, and I'm not even near to getting enough to pay it. I don't know what to do. I don't have any family that can help me. I have tried as hard as I can in life, and always tried to help and protect other people, but as a result I let a lot of people step all over me, and now I am in a horrible spot, for not trying to take care of myself first.
Anybody have any advice? I feel like the worst father/husband in the world, and the thought of us being homeless doesn't help it much.
Sorry to trouble you all, but thanks for reading.

Sincerely,
Joel Lindow