Well, there is this girl, a junior in my school, and a mutual friend hooked us up to go to the sophomore social together. And I'm really starting to have feelings for her.
I got her a bear for Valentine's Day and a message that was broadcasted on homeroom that asked her to be my valentine. But now I know about a guy she's talked about before. He goes to a different school, and I found out that they have been hanging out a lot lately.
When I found out today, I felt like someone was stirring up my insides, and right now I'm about to puke my guts out. I don't know what's happening.
Her birthday is coming up, but I know I need to do somehting this week, before it's too late. I mean, I think she is awesome, but I don't wanna screw up our friendship and then lose interest in her as a person.
What could I give her for her birthday that would give her a definite impression that I really like her, and that won't shove it all in her face, so that she would have to make a choice between me and the other guy? (I know though, that I would lose it for sure)
But I don't wanna hold my feelings back. I feel really bad on the inside right now. Almost puking and I feel so down in the dumps.
Is there even a way to preserve our friendship after telling her I really like her, but she isn't in the same place I am in? I don't wanna screw up our freindship at all, at least then we can still have fun on that one night.
I know I shouldn't but just writing this and thinking it over is almost bringing me to tears. This is so frustrating. Any replies would be appreciated.