Join Date: Nov 2010
Location: Berlin, Germany
Of course a person can try to have a healthy life. But a healthy life is no warranty for a long life. We had lost many people, who had lived very healthy, and some of them had become only between 40 and 60. Mostly it was because of a heart attack, sometimes also because of an accident. And of course suddenly a person can be attacked by unknown people, mostly outside, and the victim can be stabbed, shot or murdered on another way. Especially in environments with very much crime and violence it happens very often. And then the children lose one of their parents or the parents lose one of their children or the adults lose their partner.
Frank's mother had won a fight against the first cancer many years ago. In 2010 she became ill, and in 2012 her health had become worse. She had been stabilized a few times. After the year 2013 had started, she had to be brought into a nursing home. We had known already in that time, that it was not harmless, and we had thought, that she would die before my own mother, but my own mother had died as first.
The Parkinson of my father had started when the Seventies had ended. At the beginning a person can do more things than at the end of the Parkinson. The final state is very terrible, and the person suffers very much. In December 2002 my father had a pneumonia, and the doctors had told me: „No, Your father will not become 80. We cannot give him a long time anymore. Maybe he will become 75, maybe not!“. I had seen in the last weeks, that the end would come soon and it would be inevitable. On his last day it was not possible to wake him up, when we had visited him. The nurse from the nursing station saw him, but she still had thought, that he would not die, and later, when she wanted to bring him back to the bed, she saw him sitting dead in the wheel-chair. But my mother had said, that he had looked very relaxed. He didn't need to suffer anymore. But although I had known, that he would die, I myself would have given him some more days. I didn't know, that his death would come so quickly.
My mother herself seemed to be very stable, although she had Diabetes, and I myself would have given her some more years. I had expected, that she would become also 89. After the fire in her old leased apartment in June 2012 and some days in the hospital she was brought into the nursing home. Because of the nasty neighbors suddenly the management for all houses had terminated the lease agreement contract with her. My mother got told these news, but later she had asked me very often, when could she return into her old leased apartment. Also she had asked me very often: „Where are all my books and LPs?“. I didn't know, what should I answer. But maybe she had known already, that they didn't exist anymore, and she simply didn't want to live anymore. The man from the nurses was in the holidays. When he was back and made his control-tour on his first day, he found my mother in a very bad state, and he tried to help, but the death was faster than the emergency. The cause of her death never had been figured out.
Recently I had again some discussions with other people, in the internet and in real, because they themselves are now in such situations, and they are afraid, that their fathers and mothers possibly would pass away soon. Then I can say only shortly, what I myself had experienced some years ago. They will have also talks with some more people, if they will go through hard times.
Also we ourselves still have to go through hard times, for other reasons, because of very big problems (our existence is in danger because of very nasty people). Soon my next longer absence from the internet will follow, because I really feel very sick, with all my fears, depressions, panic attacks, and the prescribed therapy is not avoidable. Then I will stop by more rarely...
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