Old 28th October 2003, 22:40   #1
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Looks a Little Dead In Here...

WARNING: Long post ahead. Those with short attention spans, ADD or mental retardation, please veer towards your back button. All other traffic proceed with caution.

Wow, haven't posted a new thread here in a while. And no, this isn't an "omgomgomg what's happened to this place, it used to pwn now it sucks" thread. I just want to rant and figured what the hell, for old times' sake...

So, ok, me and my stepdad own a decent size body shop. Of course, the landlord is a sloppy cockmongrel and the back of the shop is one of his many clutter-doms and is in a serious state of disrepair. The roof is majorly leaking and turning into a calming, yet still unnerving waterfall whenever it rains, oil, dirt, trash, cables and wires everywhere, making for a greasy, filthy obstacle course, and broken windows, which allow various stray cats and other rodents in.

So here it is, Sunday, and my stepdad decides to venture back there for whatever reason. Lo and behold, a tiny 2 day old kitten is heard crying from underneath the convertible top of a 69 Cutlass that hasn't moved in decades. Cold, alone, and scared, he brings the kitten home, and, being the sucker I am for helpless animals, I become a "catmum."

Now, I know how to raise a kitten after it's been weened, but before
that? A 2 day old kitten? Nope. Luckily, my boyfriend's sister loves cats, and I ask her to google me some orphan kitten care sites for some information. Needless to say, she responds with an assload and a half of links, which I read and soak it all in like a dehydrated sponge, confident that I'm gonna help this poor kitten survive.

So now armed with all this kitten knowledge and motherly instinct, the palm-sized cutie becomes my priority. He had been doing well so far: he eats regularly, sleeps peacefully and poos fine. He loves to be held against my heart and gently rubbed down; it mimics exactly what his real mother would do and soothes him. Needless to say, within 1 minute of cradling that kitten on my chest, I fell in love with him (her? we weren't really sure, too early to tell really..) That first night was actually a little rough, up every 2 hours on the dot to help him poo, feed him, burp him, then nestle him back in. Hey, it was worth it, he was now like my baby, but without all that pesky pregnancy and labor bullshit getting in the way.

Monday night, I had to go down the shop to finish up a job I was supposed to be finished with on Sunday, but that was before we found the kitten. So my mom, armed with the same info I was, decided it would be her turn to care for the kitten. She was as surprised as I was that it had made it this far and was still strong and healthy. So off I go to work, confident in knowing that my mom had everything under control and would call me if any problems came up. I do have to admit though, however pathetic this might sound, but I actually missed the little guy and couldn't stop thinking about him while I was working.

(Cue sad music here)

So fast forward in time a bit; it's now 4:30 am, and I come in from work. I rush upstairs ever so quietly to check in on him, and find him sprawled, snoozing away with a tiny bit of the milk leftover from his last feeding highlighting his tiny, but almost smiling mouth. Not wanting to disturb him, I just pecked him on his tiny head, then headed for a shower.

Now here I am, downstairs, clean smelling and watching a little bit of TV before catching a quick nap. Just as I was falling asleep, I'm startled by my mom, hysterical, running downstairs with the kitten and his box, flubbering in between sobs about how he started to choke, and that she tried to help him, but as soon as she did, he fell still. My heart stopped; I reached in, picked him up and cradled him against me like I had been doing the whole time he was in my care. He "looked" up (his eyes were still closed), stretched out, then curled up, and slowly stopped breathing. I laid there with him against my chest for what seemed like an eternity before I admited to myself that he was gone.

My mom blamed herself, saying that it was her fault for not being a good "catmum" and not being able to do more for him. In actuality, no it's not her fault, we both knew from reading all those sites that kittens who lose their real mother in their first week have a slim chance of surviving. But he was progressing so well, I guess we were in denial about that part, assuming that our care and love would help overcome any sicknesses he might have had. But it didn't, in the end it just wasn't enough for him. It's amazing how attatched I had gotten to him in a mere 2 days; when he died, it felt like a piece of my heart was torn out and mashed repeatedly.

And here I am now, having just recently buried him in our backyard in a cookie tin with an angel cat on it, wrapped in this rabbit fur collar he liked to sleep on and now typing out my angst for random people to read and browse through. I'm not completely sad about his dying though, it's better that he went after he had a few days of loving rather than to die in the back of that Cutlass alone and helpless. We did everything we could, sort of magically being turned into mother cats. But to see, up close and personal, life taken away so easily from a little creature that truly didn't deserve it hit a nerve in me somewhere. His life was the smallest of any pet I have ever had, but I can pretty much guarantee that his short span of life will stay with me forever. I know this sounds worse-than-Hallmark sappy, but it's the truth. His little existance served as a reminder for me on just how fragile life really and truly is. (ok ok, I'll stop with the annoying gushiness, but I can't help it, I'm an emotional woman ;P) I only wish that I had gotten the chance to take a picture of him as a keepsake.

So here I am, a wreck from losing my baby, a baby that could fit in the palm of your hand with plenty of room to spare. I know it doesn't rival major losses in other peoples' lives, but for now, it's important to me. It's amazing that I have more compassion for animals than I do for humans, but then again, humans usually get what they deserve, whereas animals simply fall victim to Mother Nature and abusive people. I don't really know where I'm going with this rant, or if it even makes sense the way I'm expressing it, but oh well. Heh, I can't even begin to imagine how fucked up I'll be if/when I have to put my 12 year old cat down. It'll probably be about a 12 page rant then. =P

I'm not looking for any sympathy or "sorry" posts, I'm not trying to be a pity-attention whore, I don't even care if anyone replies or not, I just needed to get this all out. So yeah, sorry about the uberlong double-length bible on this; I know it's alot for what seems like such a miniscule event. But you know how us women are, yap yap yap...

If you're still reading this post, congratulations and thank you for your time! You have an excellent attention span and will be reward- Oh look, something shiny!

PS: Spare me the "Everytime you masturbate.." line, I know the real reason he's gone is because you jerkoffs just can't stop playing with yourselves. See! It's all really YOUR fault!! Yeah, that's right, I'm talking to you, the one with your hand constantly stuck in your pants cause you have nothing better to do! Get off your lazy ass and go do something productive that doesn't involve porn! Won't someone please think of the kittens!

edit: Aye nead Hukded one Foniks, plzkthnx
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Old 28th October 2003, 22:45   #2
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Old 28th October 2003, 23:02   #3
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I rescued a baby kitten 12 years ago under our car just as we were about to move here.
12 years later that one kitten became 30
However after redoing the math
When you ADD five blood thirsty dogs
The number shrinks markedly
Down to a managebale four
plus the inside cat my sis saved
It lost its broodmate only a few weeks after birth
Knew it was a gonner
And that poor little thing stayed by its side the whole time
It was so small and fluffy
The survivor?
Has the persona of a crack addicted attention whore
I'm debating on whether or not to feed it to the largest of my dogs as a reward for services rendered
Depends on if the cat continues its errant ways
I might make a poll about its fate......
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Old 28th October 2003, 23:27   #4
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Awkward "welcome back, hurr" post that has nothing to do with the thread topic and succeeds in illustrating a common problem with these boards..
Geez, I would at least expect you to read the first paragraph before excitedly clicking "reply." Remember people, READ & THINK before you post. But you know I still <3 ya =*

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whereas animals simply fall victim to Mother Nature and abusive people
Thank you for providing proof to this point! Get the fuck out of my thread now plzkthnx. (note: not flame, but I would expect an intelligible person such as yourself could find a better way to get rid of the cat, regardless of how mentally unstable it is...one word comes to mind, shel-ter)
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Old 28th October 2003, 23:33   #5
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Its not mentally unstable
It is quite smart
And i believe it has actually shown signs of basic emotions
I tested it
I have no REAL intention on destroying the poor fellow
In fact, it has grown quite fond of the dog in question
The dog in turn, has not tried to eat it.
Startling
How could i end this beautiful experiment?
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Old 28th October 2003, 23:58   #6
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I should take my own advice sometimes >.<

Ahh, such a relief.

Sorry, but with that reply and your sig, I just naturally assumed the worse, picturing a cuddly kitten getting mauled by a dog

With that said, ok you can stay in my thread now

And my Newfoundland is the same way with our pet rabbit. Everywhere else she goes, she tries like hell to catch squirrels and bunnies, but when she gets home, she'll let the rabbit push her around (literally) and not even make a move on her. It's actually cute when the rabbit tries to sleep next to her

edit: wtf is a "reflief" and why doesn't my keyboard cooperate with me
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Old 29th October 2003, 00:20   #7
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You may not have been aiming fo rthis, but you're still gonna get it.

Sorry, babe. =*
I know you did everything possible - some things aren't meant to be. =)

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Old 29th October 2003, 01:48   #8
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I've got two pictures of my last kitty cat sitting on my computer desk. She was about fourteen years old when she passed away. It's been well over a year now since then, but I'm still so heartbroken over it that I don't think I'll be able to have another cat in this house as long as I live here.

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Old 29th October 2003, 02:20   #9
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Old 29th October 2003, 02:25   #10
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im sorry SLK

i remember, we had a stray cat we found..well, she had kittens after we had taken her in. well, i remember, we put the kitten in the porch, and a baby gate so they couldnt climb up the stairs and escape. well, the mother cat was down there with them, and she didnt like the gate. all the babies were climbing on it, and she leaped up and jumped over it. the problem was, when she jumped over it, she knocked it over, and it landed on the kittens. one of the kittens was unlucky, and was crushed, the others werent hurt. i still remember the poor kitten. it twitched about, and bled from its mouth. i remember freaking out, i was the only one down there when it happened. he died about 2min later. it was over 2 years ago, but it has to be the saddest thing i have ever seen.

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Old 29th October 2003, 02:41   #11
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That's enough to make me cry.
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Old 29th October 2003, 03:43   #12
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I'm with jaz on this one, sorry for the loss. I got choked up when I read it, reminded me of my cat who I had from kindergarten up to Middle School. My mom found him in the middle of the road, just a little kitten, and picked him up. I still remeber that day, being picked up by my Aunt and Mother, and as I opened the door, there he was just a little helpless thing staring at me, I instantly fell in love with that cat. I even got to name him, so I figured since we found him on a Friday, I'll name him Friday. He used to sleep at the foot of my bed, sometimes even coming up and laying next to my head every night. Damn I loved that cat. He lived a good long 13 years, one day he just stopped eating, and he couldn't move his back legs. So we took him to the vet and he said that Friday's kidneys were failing him and that the thing that would be best was to put him down. I couldn't stay in there, I sayed my last goodbyes to my cat, my best friend in a way, and then walked out. He's now buried in my backyard, near where my Toy Poodle Minnie is buried. I go out there every now and then just to sit there and remember. Damn..sorry, that just all came out, to tell the truth, made my eyes tear up too.
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Old 29th October 2003, 22:12   #13
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Old 29th October 2003, 23:06   #14
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I wanted to find the right comic about it, but when I did, I realised that it was a series of them, and to post them all would just take away from it. So, as I feel like I should say something, since I already started writing, I'll quote the last thing Calvin says about the baby racoon he found, which died a day later.
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Calvin: Mom says death is as Natural as birth, and it's part of the life Cycle.
She says we don't really understand it, but there are many things we don't understand, and we just have to do the best we can with the knowledge we have.
I guess that makes sense.
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I was in #winamp when SLK was talking about this, very sux indeed.
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Wow. I just found this thread again (no idea how) and figured I'd <bump> it. Makes a thought-prevoking read.

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