Old 25th December 2004, 08:08   #1
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would you care if i died?

i feel like absolute shit right now. i can't see my friends or my family. i don't have a job, money, girlfriend, nothing. i have spent the last few minutes crying and i don't think i'm done yet. i just can't take living life without my friends and family. i can name only 5 people that i know for sure that care about me(not including my family). i just don't feel love from anybody. i just don't want to continue on.

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Old 25th December 2004, 08:41   #2
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Dot feel bad. About fifteen years ago I was in the same situation not to mention sleeping in the storage bin of an apartment building that didn't lock their doors cause it was the only warm place I could find to sleep.

Now I make a great amount of money, have a decent place to live, friends and family and all that comes with it. I think there is a time in everyones life when everything goes to absolute shit. One thing to remember is when at the absolute bottom there is no where to go but up.

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Old 25th December 2004, 12:27   #3
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Re: would you care if i died?

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would you care if i died?
I was kind of hoping you'd hurry up to be honest.

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Old 25th December 2004, 13:50   #4
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Been there.
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If you should to live on anyway.

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so far my christmas is going good. my head hurts a little bit but i'm still good to go.
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But if u die by commiting sucicide, santa would like put you in the naughty list- FOREVER!!!!!
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Old 25th December 2004, 14:10   #6
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whoops... i ment suicide... typo!
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Old 25th December 2004, 15:00   #7
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Old 25th December 2004, 15:20   #8
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Old 26th December 2004, 03:01   #9
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Re: Re: would you care if i died?

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I was kind of hoping you'd hurry up to be honest.
i don't know what you're talking about there.

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there's a time difference there if you didn't notice. i was doing great until about 11:30 last night.

all today i've been holding back crying again in front of everybody and ruining thier christmas. i think my aunt kind of noticed though. now i'm thinking that since nobody else asked, do they even notice how i'm acting. do they even care? if i'm going to spend christmas with somebody, i want them to actually care about me. if they don't really care about me, i don't want to be around them.

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i feel like absolute shit right now.... blah
What a selfish post. Get a psychologist.

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Old 26th December 2004, 04:20   #11
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i feel like absolute shit right now. i can't see my friends or my family. i don't have a job, money, girlfriend, nothing. i have spent the last few minutes crying and i don't think i'm done yet. i just can't take living life without my friends and family. i can name only 5 people that i know for sure that care about me(not including my family). i just don't feel love from anybody. i just don't want to continue on.
Porn.

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But if u die by commiting sucicide, santa would like put you in the naughty list- FOREVER!!!!!
Porn will get you on the naughty list, you dont have to die for it though.

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Wine is fine but whiskey’s quicker
Suicide is slow with liquor
Take a bottle and drown your sorrows
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Porn is better.

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What a selfish post. Get a psychologist.
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Old 26th December 2004, 04:24   #12
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Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Everyone goes through times when they feel like their lives are shit. Whether or not their lives continue to be shit is a choice.
If you want to waste a lot of time wallowing in self-pity that's up to you. Just remember, you'll miss out on a lot of good things if that's what you choose.

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Porn.
Porn will get you on the naughty list, you dont have to die for it though.
Porn is better.
Who gives you free porn?
Talking about selfishness... get a girl

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Old 26th December 2004, 07:43   #14
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Been there before deeder, plenty of times. To tell you the truth, I've tried a few times as well. Thank who-ever that I didn't completely go through with it because I would've missed out on meeting the girl of my dreams.

Like Womanofheart said, it's a permament solution to a temporary problem. I don't mean to sound harsh, but it's also the most selfish thing a person could do to the people that ACTUALLY care for them. Just remember that it will get better, it always does.

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Old 26th December 2004, 10:29   #15
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well, i'm happy again. my religious arguments are to thank for that. they made me realize that i wasn't actually a christian. i'm a believer still. i just noticed that even jesus wasn't a christian. i believe that i've been called to organize some sort of group of believers, not tied to any religious doctrine. doctrines can and have been manipulated by man to suit his needs.

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Old 26th December 2004, 12:25   #16
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My personal opinion is that Christianity isn't - or at least shouldn't be - a "doctrine". Follow the religion, not the "church".

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Old 26th December 2004, 14:51   #17
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they made me realize that i wasn't actually a christian. i'm a believer still.
Allah?
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Old 26th December 2004, 15:05   #18
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Ironically..............

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i believe that i've been called to organize some sort of group of believers, not tied to any religious doctrine. doctrines can and have been manipulated by man to suit his needs.
That one line 'I believe that I've been called', kinda worries me. People who say that are noramally cult leaders or crazy evangelical Christians who believe they have the power to cure cancer by looking at you.




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Old 26th December 2004, 18:42   #21
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no, i'm not much of a leader, notice i said "organize", and i don't think i can cure anything by looking at you. besides, benny hinn sucks and i think he's a fake.

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The lowest points in our lives often lead us to highest points of self-discovery. Life is the journey, deeder. Have fun with it! Glad to hear you're feeling better!

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Old 27th December 2004, 20:26   #23
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Old 28th December 2004, 07:07   #25
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Ah, nothing is more noble than changing other people's opinions because you are so totally amazingly right and everyone else is wrong.
Good luck with that.

Btw, does this sound like the start of a suicide cult to anyone else?
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Ooooh. Angst. Just for you deeder.

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Old 28th December 2004, 11:36   #27
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Deeder, if you want to know wether people care about you, talk to them. You can't expect them to notice your feelings while you are hiding them. Go see a person you trust (I'm sure you trust someone. If not, take the risk and you'll see he/she actually cares more about you than you thought.) and talk to him/her. But don't start the conversation mentioning suicide. It'll scare people.

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Of course, if you do commit suicide, do it in a fun way. Like strapping a bomb to yourself and walking into a mosque in mid prayers...
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Old 28th December 2004, 12:49   #29
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But that's just wrong, why would any civilised human being want to do that?
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But that's just wrong, why would any civilised human being want to do that?
Indeed it is. If the mosque was frequented by the kind of people who idolise martydom and admire their own who become suicide bombers, it would at least be interesting to see the reactions.

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Once you've had them, they aint virgins anymore. Maybe they hadn't thought that part out yet...
Well, perhaps you get a *new* virgin, once you... uh... "wear out" the old ones.

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At least 20 members of your family haven't just died and you're not walking around looking for their bodies, trying to tolerate the stench from the dead while everything around you is rubble, mud and misery.

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