Old 23rd September 2002, 03:27   #561
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something else I found (written 4/17/2002) that I'd like to share with you guys. Sorry for withholding my stuff for such a long time. Like any mad artist, I go through isolatory periods.

JEWEL DROPS
one by one
silver drops slide from my eyes
two darkening pools
that slowly lose their shine
and a river of blackened diamonds
glides along my skin
I'm trapped in my demise
by wretched riches again
so I cry
tear by tear I cry
sparkling jewels I cry
the truth bleeds from my eyes
as I cry cry cry myself
into a rich man's dream
as I cry cry cry myself
softly still to sleep
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Old 23rd September 2002, 03:31   #562
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There was a poetry thread!?!?
Here is something I have writen a while ago on litkicks' forum (be indulgent, english is my second language )


The night was silent, dark and cold
Silent, frozen as stone
Dark, black as coal

WHEN SUDDENLY!

Climbing up from a fun and crowed bar in Hell
Two blown away jazzmen filled the cold automn air
With the warm sounds of a rusted harp and a shiny horn
Wistling like sparrows in boring Montréal
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Old 23rd September 2002, 03:46   #563
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Morning People,

nice work wildse ... ... I love your [where does love goes] ... really touching. Jewel Drops is .. wow ... :|

welcome lescuyer. Nice work ... post more ... we hunger for more things to read ...

Here is something from my side ...


: Tragedy
Quote:
Rain and more rain
never ending in its coming
flooding everything in its path
making land into sea again

Tears and more tears
covering what was once sunshine
shrouding all that was beautiful
making life into a mere shell

Like the void it sucks us dry
this feeling that we will die
not thinking of what might be
the path to our reality
where heaven and hell meets
our life a tragedy
where GOD paints its masterpiece


Wrote it from no where, read whatever you want into it ...

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Old 23rd September 2002, 05:13   #564
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Here are my TV sitcom haikus:

Zack, Slater, Screech, Moose,
These are the names of the best,
They made me laugh, not.

Uncle Joey, Jesse,
The uncles of the legends,
Inspirations, to us.

Tony, Samantha,
Who really is the boss, Tony?
Let us remember..






By the way, what's with all the suicidal, dark, boredom in a room, making imagery of rain and bad feelings? LOL

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Old 23rd September 2002, 05:59   #565
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Just had an interesting exchange of words with someone... had to get it off my chest. Poetry is the key.

SLICE AGAIN
and the pinch of lungs
cramps and burns

you slice me through the back,
through the front,
through my eyes and through my heart.

the words trickle across the screen
into some ignorant banter
that invades my brain

my philosophies-
damn philosophies.
thoughts are useless
nothing matters...
"in the end everything matters."
then why don't my thoughts matter?
slice again.

your words slice again.

and the salt escapes my eyes.

as the rain stops,
the storm begins within.
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Old 23rd September 2002, 06:06   #566
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by the way- izchan- that last poem was great. Reminded me of a metaphor that I have for my life. Not that I should be living by metaphors... but the main idea is that everyone's got a slug part, and a shell part... sometimes there's more shell than slug, sometimes there's more slug than shell. For me, I am a beautiful seashell- many layers, exquisitely sculpted... but slugless. I'm in search of a slug. Very amusing, I know. I think too much.
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Old 23rd September 2002, 08:04   #567
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well ... the rain part came from my town currently being flooded ... ... as for the suicidle part well ... in these hard times .. most people will rather die than go hungry.

But that is just my own thoughts, mind you all ...

and welcome evil_oj ...

if you think about it, we do tend to attract alot of sentimental people in this thread. I wonder why?



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Old 23rd September 2002, 20:04   #568
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it seems that when i took off of being online, that included the forum. i swear that wasn't my intent.

but, as i havn't written anything, it doesn't really matter. the end of my relationship seems to have put a damper on anything worth writing about. it was really refreshing to read the picture lescuyer wrote. havn't read anything like it in a long time. i might have to try somehting like that once. and my love of jazz didn't hurt either .

wilds, do you think i should get on and talk to her? i'm way out of touch.

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Old 23rd September 2002, 22:27   #569
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Very stimulating thread, I love reading your works, you guys are very talented. Your comments are very appreciated.

Here is another one :


3 am, the bar was closing.
Montreal was asleep, dead or most accurately lifeless while I,
after an insane drink-drank-anything-in-sight
flirts-inviting short skirts'n slaps that really hurt
after feeling so broken down beaten and worn,
suddenly resuscitated.
I Resuscitated
Felt an unexplainable irrational unbelievable SHOCK
Felt alive again, animal again!
Felt great and I don't care why, for certain
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Old 23rd September 2002, 23:34   #570
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again, sorry for taking so long to post again, but everytime i do get achance to come back, its inspiring. those aresome amazing poems, people, even if my feeble attempas cant compare, its still wonderful to just come here and read them. well, ill go ahead and post another, hopefully some more soon.

Seeing Beyond My of Reach

There are no stars
On this dark night
Only black clouds
Devoid of light
I see no one else
Nothing in my sight
The darkness creeps
closer to my soul, my inner light
It reflects all help
Its poison, bitter bite
Nothing gets through
The eternal blight
I try to escape it
Its an endless fight
Its just too powerful
Causing me fright
I attack at it
With all my might
But i always lose
It makes me small
I cant compare to its height
It always grows
Ill never be alright
In my future
there is nothing bright
Eternal darkness
Ive choosen in spite
Found loved ones
And found friends too
But I make myself suffer
For the things that I do
Cant forgive myself
For my constant mistakes
Just pulls me further down
Till my heart breaks
No way out of this hole
Its a bottomless pit
Ill just curl in a ball
And remain here and sit
My soul feels empty
It aches from my pain
Cant avoid all this hurt
Refuse to complain
Ill carry my worries
and problems on my own
I wont burden others
Ill carry it alone
I just bring problems for people
I just hurt them all
It makes me weep to think about it
From bloodshot eyes, hot tears fall
Why cant I let go
Of all of this
Theres so much in life
That it makes me miss
I found my love
And dont want to lose her
But I distance myself
Its all such a blur
I make new walls
Every single day
For all of my barricades
I will certainly pay
I cant find in myself
A sense of self-worth
A meaning for being
On this planet Earth
Ive lost my path
I need to find direction
I need to find my way
Infinite roads at the intersection
Is there one path that is better
Or are they all the same?
Will one bring me joy
And the rest bring me pain?
I'll just continue on
As I always have done
Looking to the East
And the rising sun
I will find a meaning in life
And happiness too
Its right in front of me
I just have to let it through
What I want to attain
Is just beyond my reach
I can see what I want
Like a distant beach
Ill just keep going
Ill never lose hope again
While others have faith in me
Ill find my future, but i dont know when

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Sword in jaw, awaiting the day, Ragnarok, when all gods shall pay


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Old 24th September 2002, 04:32   #571
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Wow, thank you for sharing such honnest and sad verses with us. I found them very touching.
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Old 24th September 2002, 16:04   #572
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Sorry for all the dark poems but my doc says its best to release them all by writing
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Forgotten Soul by Lee

My life, my wife are all gone,
Including the kids I've spawned,
Am I the only person here,
Could this be the first time that I feel fear?

I wander this desolate place,
With a look of despair on my face,
I've no place to go,
As my skin goes numb with cold.

I try to warm myself up,
I start coughing blood like a sick pup,
Why am I here?
Is my death near?

I can't feel myself anymore,
My breathing has become a chore,
My eyes are turning gray,
I want my life to end today.

But I know it can't happen this way,
It can't, there must be a price to pay,
I must be paranoid or dreaming,
Just that this dream isn't kidding.

So I'm stuck here in this parallel universe,
Wondering the cold streets looking for a way out,
Why am I cursed!?
No one can't hear my screams or shouts.

My whole body quivers as its turned to stone,
I guess this is how it feels to be alone,
A stone block embedded into a wall,
No one here to hear my cries or calls.

This is a nice way to die,
Can't talk, move, or cry,
I await the light to appear before my eyes,
As my soul leaves and this body dies.

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Old 24th September 2002, 18:10   #573
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I wrote this for all those times that I've been unable to cry... even when someone was murdered, or when my heart was broken, or when I've done something terrible. I can cry now, but I guess I wrote this as a memento. Or as a 'just in case'

Tear Shop

There's a tear shop around the corner
I stop in now and again
But sometimes they run out of tears
Because the world cries within

And so I'm rendered tearless
In the wicked depth of pain
The world cries out rivers
I drown in heartless shame

Why can't I buy my tear drops
From a store across the street?
I guess they don't take money...
I peel onions in defeat

I need to cry my sorrow
Or scream at the top of my lungs
But I just store up everything
A vicious circle's begun

Maybe I'll sell my unused tears
But what would I sell them for?
Maybe they'll give me my soul back
And I'll be able to cry some more

But all of my tears would be gone
And what could I do then?
I guess I'll keep on storing them
And hope for a soul again
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Old 25th September 2002, 06:36   #574
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*hugs* wildse.

i had another bad night. but, on the bright side something came out of it. a rambling endless (not really) thought on truth.

Quote:
MUTE

--in walks empty silence
starting blindly at a face
or at wall and finds it hard to tell
the one from the other

and dying watch the
squirels in the park
sprint and twitch and feel
their life slide through

silence is a tomb
and all that's built
returns to dust to dust
so what's the use

in living in this
pseudo-world this
mourning vision of our hates and loves
and all the blinding signs of life

with open eyes we stand
and smile with silent enigmatic eyes
the tortured hope of
life unfeigned.
those of you who understand.... "do i make it or does it make me?"
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Old 25th September 2002, 07:12   #575
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I know how you feel wildse. I had that problem...didn't cry for like 8 years cause my parents taught me not to cry. The doc says crying is OK now so I can let my tears flow.
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Midnight Girl

The girl of midnight, comes if she wants to,
With her everflowing grace and beauty,
That men swoon and fall in paralysis,
Except me, I'm the only one that lived
To tell of the story.

She got her name because of her eyes,
Purple tint, with a glimmer of blue,
Only can be seen of her during the day,
Her face, smooth as silk,
And a creamy white like milk.

Her strides are brisk but conceptual,
Appears in and out of the landscapes,
Lures men with her swag,
As she walks to one end of the beach,
To the other.

I met her one night,
During a midsummer midnight,
With the moon so high up in the sky,
I saved her from the sea,
Cause she could've died.

Our eyes met, and she uttered a word of thanks,
Her voice, soft and wispery like a calm sea breeze,
That blows in from time to time off the ocean,
I loved her when I first set my eyes upon this maiden,
Only to be broken by a kiss of death.

She faded into the fog that came over the horizon,
I lie there gasping for breath,
But lucky I didn't suffer her vice grip,
Could've left me paralyzed,
And this concludes my story of the elusive
Midnight Girl.

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Old 26th September 2002, 01:45   #576
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just composed this after reading an email from my gf.

Mistakes?

where did i go wrong?
when did things go bad?
when did i lose touch
with all i ever had?
why does my entire world
always get turned upside down?
along with all my happy smiles
that always turn to frowns
we used to talk for hours
could never say goodbye
but has the time now come?
will it make me cry?
what did do this time?
can i fix this thing?
is there any hope at all
or have i broken my wings?
will my soul and heart
ever soar once more?
am i trapped beneath my pain
fallen to the floor?
will i find light within
all that dark, cold frost?
can i find my way through
or am i forever lost?
i hope with all my being
that somehow we will hold
one another in our arms
till we have grown old
if our paths do part
here and now forever
part of me shall wither
but ill pull myself together
ill be strong still
in the face of deepest pain
ill strive onward still
though ill never be whole again

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Old 27th September 2002, 22:32   #577
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guess i need to keep this alive and kicking...


Cycles


Endless cycle, controlling me
Eternal wheel spinning free
The Pain I feel wont leave me be

Continuing on, never ending
Solid as rock, unbending
Wounding me, never mending

Piercing words, they are ever throwing
Like a river, always flowing
Injuring others, but never knowing

Proud and ignorant, cruel and naive
Ever crashing, like a wave
From the pain they cause, no one can save

Each one is scared, behind their own wall
Away from their fears, the hide and crawl
Never at peace, till they let the wallls fall

And so continues humanity's strife
Stabbing hearts, like a jagged knife
Until the end, comes to this life

In life's many paths, this is only one slope
Destiny hangs from countless threads, forming one rope
The tether will last as long as theres hope.

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Old 28th September 2002, 01:26   #578
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don't let your gaze
wander up to my eyes
you'll drown in these pools
you'll find your demise

don't trust the darkness
flooding forth from my stare
you'll end in blindness
you'll find I don't care

don't let the mystery
seduce your curious mind
you'll find I'm illusory
just a trick of your mind
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Old 28th September 2002, 01:59   #579
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Some things don't seem to fit.
The Autumn colors
soft and pleasant
spiritual in essence,
coming from within a soul and spirit,
like the Peyote enhanced colors of a sunset in the west.
And the sounds of
Teckno-disco-elaborate-light-and-sound-show,
found in the deepest morning hours,
of a Crystal Palace.
So...
These sights and sounds don't seem to fit together
at this moment in time.
But it's ok.
For this is the palace I'm in.
And I'm able to glide from one to the other and back.
With open eyes...open ears...open mind.
Knowing that somehow they fit together.
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Old 28th September 2002, 02:10   #580
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wow, those are both really good, papadoc and wildsegolily.


Lacking

The vast insufficiency
that I feel within me
is seen by me only
Why do I feel so lonely?
I get close to others
but there are still barriers
these walls wont let me share
myself, why do I even care?
I just sit and waste the day
it flows like a tide, ebbing away
there is nothing left for me to say
except, "I'm sorry" till I'm old and gray
Will this feeling ever leave?
Is it real or trying to decieve?
Will I neve stop to grieve?
Why has my heart been so painfully cleaved?
I want to do more for everyone
I feel my job will never be done
The weight on my shoulders is over a ton
I'll continue on, past the setting sun
I am lost within my twisted mind
To others I only want to be kind
The truth and happiness are what I wish to find
And love, that will forever bind
My soul feels as though its lacking
I feel as though I'm continually back-tracking
What can fill this void I'm knowing?
Is there something that no one is showing?
I know now I have found the person
And the joy it brings I only wish to immerse in
Forever shall that person keep
The love that I have known so deep
From my mind all of this pours
My heart and soul, eternally yours

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Old 28th September 2002, 15:16   #581
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I go to sleep for a couple of days, and the poetry thread goes to PAGE 16 ... ... thank you people for keeping this thread so interesting for so long.

As for all of you with a problem with your other half. well ... as one of my best friend says it ... "if it ain't yours, it ain't yours."

thus here is the poem for it ..

If it ain't yours
Quote:
I know it hurts
I know you will rather die
but sometimes that is just the way it is
even if it ends without a smile

Of course we love happy ever afters
we love to think that endings never come
yet sad but true in our world
even the best will loose sometimes

So if it ain't yours
know that it ain't yours
and move on to other things
just remember that one day
your chance will come
grab it and understand
you will be doing it again
that is the cycle
that is the way
that is life since time began
amen


after going through atleast 5 excrutiating, heartbreaking, financial crippling relationship, I can safely tell you this, it was good while they lasted, and I learn and grew with everyone of them. Ultimately, they all train me to be someone better for the next one coming. Hopefully, I will eventually be able to make atleast one of them happy before I die.

In my 6th relationship now .. been 2 years and going. Preparing to propose coming april ... hopefully, I don't need to pay alimony.

Enjoy.

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Old 29th September 2002, 05:59   #582
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good luck isaac! i hope everything goes well. no poem today, but though i should encourage you i'm still trying to figure out how to have a relationship that lasts more than 3 days and has the possibility of a friendship afterwards.... hasn't happened so far.

but best of luck to you, hope everything goes fabulously

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Alan. Thanks for the kind words.

If I can give you anything from my experience with these relationship i have, there is one thing that I know. Don't try to figure out anything, just go and meet someone and then enjoy yourself. I am not saying you should not have any expectations or worst yet, suggesting you to have one night stands. What I mean is that you can't figure everything withing relationships. Because everyone of them is different. They are like eggs, all of them may look the same, but in reality everyone of them are unique and requires different kind of attentions.

Just go and meet someone, then ask yourself, can I spend the rest of my life with her/him, depending on your personal taste. Now most people will tell you that it is just your FIRST DATE!!! why should you bother with this question? Well, my answer is this, if you don't think about it in your first date, you will NEVER think about it. It is a phycological thing.

If you can't commit the first time, chances are that you can't commit later on either. Even if you do, you will seldom do it willingly with all your heart.

That said, this discussion should be done on a more specific thread .. .. maybe you can start one ... .. just for fun.

Here is my contribution for today

: So they say
Quote:
So they say
love is many things
it is heaven and hell
both in one body
you can live and die by it
burn and heal with it
yet most of all
you will loose your soul in it
or so they say

Some might tell you
don't be stupid
why kill yourself with it
just pull the trigger of a gun
clean and no pain to ponder
why the heartache
broken up in pieces
for something that is intangible
that can't be held within your hands
yet kill as swiftly as any weapon
like no pain you have felt before
better off alone in the dark
or so some might say

And there is the truth
it is neither happy nor sad
just something that two souls share
nothing real but bonds that is true
holding two individuals in a dance
waltzing through life together
sometimes as one, sometimes neither
but that is what relationships are
two souls plating a single part
in the grand play of life
like all things in life
there are ups and downs
good and bads
happiness and sadness
two sides of a coin
yet a coin none the less
or so the truth says

You decide on what is best
for you and your life today
let no one say otherwise
for in the end
you are the one that decides
how you live your life


Now that is the short version of the long version of a thread on love. there is no difinate answer, only experiences of individuals and feelings that is unable to be aritculated.

You can life and die by it, yet the world will still go on, regardless of what you decide. For life is more than just love of two individuals, for life is love itself. or so they tell me.

Sometimes it is just being me that counts
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Old 1st October 2002, 17:12   #584
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Nice poems everyone....and good luck isaac also...

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Away From This Place

There was a time when I could wash away the lies.
A time when I held the sun within my eyes.
You stood so close I could taste the hope you held.
It drew me out, pulled me from the place I dwelled.

But as time ran away I began to rust.
Then time tainted you and turned it all to dust.
Now the angels fall dead in a sky condemned to cry.
You clipped my wings. Sending me burning from the sky.

I fall apart. I fall from grace.
I could never be anything in this place.
I'm losing time. This loss I've found.
I'm burning, I'm dieing. I'm breaking down.

Like the stars I feel you drifting away.
And I give into despair as night steals day.
Bleeding on the whole I shed all my tears.
I feel I'm falling apart. Giving into my fears.

There was nothing you could want in me.
So I walk away. Let myself die in the sea.
Now my sun sets harshly as the sky gives way to night.
And my blood runs cold as I give up the fight.

There's no hope in me. No chance to hold on.
I feel so lost now that your gone.
Now I'm here lonely, as I'm left behind.
You were everything I could hope to find.

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Lee, that is I think one of the best poems I have read since the thread began. It really struck a chord inside me. The essense of the feeling that I have for my love is sung by your words so precisely. I am almost in tears ... ... almost.


Here is today's poem

: Angels Confession
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I could have said something
but I did not
because I know the truth in it
all I could do was watch
as time take its toll
and lives walk away

Some might say that I was heartless
and most will say I am evil
yet no one will ever know
the pain I hold within
when I sat silently
letting you do the things you do
knowing that the day will come
and you will walk away from it all

Why did I do the things I did?
Why did I not stop it from happening?
Why must the sadness be done?
Blame it on me if it makes it better
but ultimately you will come to accept
that nothing I do would have changed
the destiny that you have chose
my only gifts are the silent prayers
that I give to you every minute of my life
the unseen strength that I share freely

Maybe one day
GOD will have mercy upon me
and take this responsibility from me
blind me from what I see today
let me be just another dust
rather than a soul that knows and feels
it is so painful to be me these days
yet go on I shall
for I know if I don't, no one will
for you or for me
I will be your invisible angel
through thick and thin
I will love you unconditionally


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Old 2nd October 2002, 03:04   #586
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old but here it goes

Entrapped by Emotions around Me and the Soul within Me- ( II ) Calm
by Janet
So I sit here and wait
Unknowing what will be
Too many things could come
So many already gone

Hoping for what I want
Wanting more what you want
Doing everything possible
To understand my feelings

I tried and failed
But maybe not in the end
But for now I have the understanding
Of not knowing what life will bring

What will be the ending fate?
I just need to sit and wait


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Old 2nd October 2002, 03:40   #587
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Anthene, my angel has return to us ...
Welcome back girl, miss you much ...
Hope you will post more, have always loved your work ...

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Old 2nd October 2002, 03:54   #588
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Thankyou that makes me feel really good speaking of angels ...

Last Breath of Life
by Janet James

Step by step they walk, a woman holding the hand of a little girl. Slowly they get closer and closer to the top. The little girl grasps the women’s hand knowing she will keep her safe on this journey on which they travel, the women keeping the girl safe from harm never letting her out of her sight.

“How far now are we from our destination?” The girl says in a serene contemplative voice.

“Closer than you would like to be,” the women replies.

“Why would you say such a thing? I want to be there now!” The girl sternly says.

The women stops, looks into the girls eyes and says: “we will be there soon enough. Yes, this travel is a hard and long one full with many obstacles. But when you finally get there you’ll say it was too short and wish to start over.”

Taking what she said into consideration the girl nods, smiles, and is on her way, keeping close by the women’s side so not to lose her way. As they approach the final steps the girl tells the women she doesn’t want her to leave, that she was there through the rough times and never let her fall or stray from the path that laid ahead.

Looking over at the women for the last time, she opens the door of eternity realizing that the trip was too short. She took for granted all the help she received and the love she was given… but it is too late now to change the past all that is left is to walk through the door leading her to that last breath of life.

10/01/2002
actually written a while ago but im not sure when so I just put todays date
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Old 2nd October 2002, 19:19   #589
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Thanks izzy, btw..wb athene, words can't describe your first poem as in good flow? anyways here's today's contribution:
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Inner Child of Mine by Lee

Look in these eyes of mine, you'll see the dark
That little space inside my heart
The darkest side witholds the light
The light that brightens me inside.

Angels don't fly, they have no wings,
It is another of those things,
That we make up,
That we believe
The real thing is not what we conceive.

You don't know
I won't let you see me,
I will hide, I will lie
As true as can be,
You just don't have,
What it would take,
To be a part of me.

The darkest side witholds the light,
The light that shines so bright,
You can't deny,
That I have lied.

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Old 3rd October 2002, 02:11   #590
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wow, good luck isaac!

time for another of my poems, this is what i do in study hall!

Never Again

I look down deep inside my soul
this bottomless pit, this depthless hole
and find myself no more
I search in spite of what I'm told
to find out what my heart may hold
and hope that its still pure
through the lightless paths that I walk
my fear and pain do truly balk
and hold me back from her
forward I shall continue on
this hopeless quest, hither and yon
I know I must endure
can I find my way back to you?
is all I've done enough to prove?
that I'll leave you never
can I ever be forgiven
for all my many faults and sins
my soul black to the core
empty, cavernous shell of hate
no longer I'll hold up this weight
fall lifeless to the floor
now I have come to my own end
no more will I need to defend
never shall my wings soar
Again.

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Sword in jaw, awaiting the day, Ragnarok, when all gods shall pay


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Here's something I'm working on.. not finished, but i would like to know if it's any good,... and worth completing

----untitled----
Throughout the dessert of thoughts
At the turning point of self-identity
I ask myself
Is the ongoing road of the past true sanctuary
or must I endevour into the darkness of a new world
... were one's dreams are free from boundries of society

Destiny leads me unto the darkened path
My soul now overhears the crys of those surrounding me

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I am forever grateful for the support you all give to this thread.

Athene you will always be my angel. Believe me so ...

Lee, thanks for your complement.
Ian ... it has been some time since the last poem .. don't keep us in suspense for too long ...

Hamylde, nice start ... can't wait to read the rest of it.


Well ... it is been some time since my last post ... .. a few days ...

Todays work.

: And then what?
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So here we are
living in complexity
thinking in simplicity
dying in obscurity
where nothing last forever
yet forever is what we strive
why do we even bother
is there not more to life

Working hard to change
I question life's meaning
if not for something bigger
what keeps me from crying
I wish I can say something
that will ease the pain
but the truth is blind
as the anwer is this
there is nothing in the beginning
and there will be nothing in the end
so why fight reality
just leave the way we came



Not one of my best, but it is the constant thing that is within my mind these days.

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Her

What the hell am I suppose to do?
I don’t know if it’s me, but I can’t take a clue
The one girl I don’t like for her body
Shows no interest, so I’m just another Nobody

I was crazy to think this could work
And I was crazy about her, now I seem like a stalker jerk
It’s just another wasted Saturday night
Well at least we’re no involved in a fight

I’ll never get the chance to know why I like her
Never to know why she was the girl I did prefer
La la la I just can’t get her out of my head
Should I just aim lower instead?

Wasting time with paper and a pencil
Wondering if my emotions are tensile
Just writing down what I feel
This whole thing seems so surreal

Just where should I go?
Especially when all I get is a “no”
She says she has plans
Should I just give up and join more clans?

I could see myself chasing her tell I graduate
Could be the rest of my life for just one date
All I think about is “you”
But, what the hell am I suppose to do?

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Old 28th October 2002, 03:58   #594
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It has been sometime since my last post.
Have been lost in the sea for the pass 2 weeks ... ... yes cruising the south china sea.

Here is my contribution for the day.

: Your version of my life
Quote:
What it means to walk away
I would say it represent liberty
to no longer care about the consequences
not bothered with the end of day

I do not wish to sound so passive
yet that is where you have lead me to
no more thinking about your future
tommorow is not mine to ponder

Everything in which I do for you
was never seen to be part of your life
I am but some wind passing by
felt and forgotten in a second
so now I say to you goodbye
I am no longer staying for the sign
of you leaving me high and dry
saying this in the end
"Hey that's life"


The cruise have put a lot of things into perspective. My goal and priorities is again set straight.

Enjoy the poem.

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Release

Large gears spin wildly in the brain that was mine,
Filling my mind with the dark seeds of anger.
Shall I follow thier fate and crawl inside
That black shell of ultimate hate?
No.
Dark clouds fill my eyes and bleed my heart,
Filling my mind with thier seeds of sadness.
Shall I drift with these clouds and fall like rain
Into the sadness of death?
No.
Sick Green mud fills my mouth,
carving a hole in my words and throat
Shall I remain silent
And keep it in?
No.
Shall I hold my Clouds inside and let them weigh me down?
No.
Shall I let the gears crush me with thier angry thoughts?
No.
I can be free of these things with the shattering of my bonds,
the snapping of thick ropes.
These bonds are hurt,
the strength is Hope.
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Fickle_V, welcome to the board. <Release> is one of the best, putting of thoughts into the words. in a very uncanny way, it resonates the same meaning from my previous poem.

Here is another poem for today.

: Maybe not
Quote:
I should have died
Should have drifted silently away
I should have cried
Should have washed away my pride
I should have prayed
Should have released my anger
I should have fell
Should have gone down on all fours

Yet at the end
I did not go away without a word
I did not wept my problems away
I did not put my fate into the gods
nor did I crawl back into the emptiness of life

Should you ever think that I am broken
well you are not very far from truth
but should you think that I am no more
then you might be a little surprise
for I was broken and then revived
only to be better
only to see clearer
yet ultimately only to say this
or maybe not
for I now understand the power of silence
to silent my fear
I must silent my pride
to silent the need to tell you everything
for my life is mine again not yours to complain
peace in my silent land


I did not explain myself before, and it just occured to me that people might have misunderstood the poem.
I wrote it because I have released myself of my obligations to a friend fo mine. I have relinquish the power that I have given to him, have decided to move on with my life.

Had a very good hug from my girl friend, to encourage me foward. No words were exchange, but everything was said with perfect words.

That is how life is sometimes. We either dwell in it or choose otherwise and move on.

Hope you enjoy my new found inspirations ...

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Happy morning people.

Yes, it is a new day, and this is a new post.

Should the world be any more brigther we will be a sun.

Why am I happy? well, why not?

Here is my poem of the day.

: What I make of it
Quote:
I have a back pain that won't go away
I have a zit that hurts my face
I have a boss that won't stop nagging
I have a dog that does nothing

I have a dateline that was yesterday
I have an account that is empty
I have a debt the size of texas
I have a life that wishes me dead

Now most people will wither
they will wish that all will fade away
when came to a fork road
they went back to where they came

Me, I chose to move on
one path or the other
it makes no difference
one might be longer than the other
but so what if it is
it is better than to have braved it
than never to have known
even if pain lies on the very end
it is better thatn not knowing

so here I go
moving down the road
not having a care in the world
just enjoying the morning sun
breezing through with life
when obstacles come along
I brave it with an open heart
for I finally come to accept
life is what I make of it


it makes no difference anymore, on what is and what's not. my reaction is the only thing that governs my life. So I choose otherwise. Why be grumpy when I can be happy. Why choose tears when I can laugh. Why ask why even, because that is the way it is. And I am happy.

Good salutations.
Happy morning.

Enjoy.

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Happy morning,
Ever had breakfast in McDonalds and actually paid attention to the music they play during the morning?

Without knowing it, I could almost sing most of the songs. An even weirder thing is that some of the ballads are actually good.

: Breakfast in McDonalds
Quote:
Soft music in the background
reminding the possibilities ahead
painting a happy picture
leading the proper way
humming the rythms of life
picking up the lost souls
moving pawns into places
advancing the purpose that no one sees
all this in a hymn that no one notices
softly tracing itself into a tapestry
where people are the threads it wield
Just another morning in McDonalds


Must be getting sentimentl in my old age ...

Enjoy.

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the sequal
Herr

What the hell happened?
You stupid little bitch
Son of a, daughter of a witch
You lied just too many times

Broke my heart more than once
Maybe it was just twice
But it seems more like thrice
What ever, I’ll find someone better

Do you think I’m better off?
Do you know how it feels to be the reject?
To break your back and snap your neck
Just for someone you don’t even know

Well let me tell why you’re hot
Because you’re made of hell fire
No matter how many no’s, I’m still not the crier
See what NOthing is putting me through

I walk alone this night
It’s a lot better than have an ex
Even if it means with no one of the opposite sex
It could have a been a great year

So I wasted another four seasons
Did someone steal you leave me all alone?
How can someone steal from you something that you never own?
I don’t know, but it makes me wonder, “What the hell happened?”

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Now Lyle ... that is what I call expressing your understanding of relationships. So here is my version of the same topic.

:Shit Happends
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They are many things that is strange
one of them are the woman trends
sometimes it is golden hairs
tommorow it might be the carrot reds

Now most people will be questioning me
what it means to be in love
in suffocation on beliefs
where a mere kiss cause tremble knees

They come, they go
thats the way it is
they break your heart just to see
if men are worthy
nothing personal just the common thing
you test the waters before you swim

So like idiots we wait
and then we bleed
so that they can be
the queen in our eyes
the jewel of the nile
we are but slaves of heart
at the end
shit happends
and we start from the begining again

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