Old 11th January 2003, 23:28   #1
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Dont you love me any more?

recently, mea asked questions about love, and phily asked how one could prove their love, i was wondering, have you ever lost something from falling in love and it not working out as planned?, have you ever been in a relationship, where you started to think that you didnt love your partner, but you carried on anyway because you didnt want to hurt their feelings?,
if so, say so, and how did it end?..

and if your one of the fortunate few who has been in love and is still in love, whats the most deepest, innermost action youve done for your significant other
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Old 11th January 2003, 23:44   #2
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it appears nobody loves me :*(
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Old 11th January 2003, 23:50   #3
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I loved my last g/f, and I stil do, but we got into a big fight over some really stupid shit I, being the dumb fuck I am said some really hurtfull things and we broke up. I regret it to this day. It's really not the most pleaseant memory of the situation which is why I didn't reply first, but o well.
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Old 11th January 2003, 23:50   #4
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i love you!(he he)

"Well, got to love you and leave you, need to go get into the shower and rub my hard naked body all over with soapy bubbles, I'll be back later to carry on playing....

It'll take you some time to get over the image of me naked in the shower......mind you don't masturbate to hard thinking about it...."
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Old 12th January 2003, 00:15   #5
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I don't love pixie... she won't send me her pics.
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Old 12th January 2003, 01:12   #6
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I'm with the delinquent. It's a painful thing to talk about, so I'm not going to.

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Old 12th January 2003, 01:12   #7
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when i was alot younger, i lived in a bad neighbourhood, crime was rampant, and to cut a long story short, i never really socialised, or joined any gangs, which made me almost like enemie number 1, everyone wanted to beat me up, and usually did, ive broken my nose 4 times, fracturered a rib, i have a permanent groove down the left side of my forehead from being thrown into a rail, anyway, all of this abuse by gangs (those fermiliar with moss side will understand), that i was slightly reclusive, most of the girlfriends i ever had cheated on nme, sometimes with people i called friends, and this took its toll on my ability to trust, and my ability to open my heart, and for a long time that protective wall pushed me away from people, eventually, i met a girl whome i really liked, we talked for a while, in fact, a long long while.., i wasnt completely honest with her at first, in fact, i lied my ass off, said i had and did things that i never had done, told her i would do things i never intended to do, i didnt even tell her my real name,. at first talking with her, it didnt matter that much, because it was casual chat, but over time it became harder and harder to contain the lies, mainly because i was starting to fall in love with her, it was so painfull at times i wanted to just stop myself and end it all.., quite honestly, but one day, i relised if anything were ever to happen between us, id have to bite the bullet and be honest, so one day, i plucked up the courage to tel her, and considering the bluntness of how i did it, she was supprisingly taking it well, though we did stop talking for a while, eventually, we carried on, and after a few more months, i spent the best 2 weeks of my life with her, it was amazing.., i still felt awful about how things had started off, and that feeling i dont beleive will ever fully leave me, its silly really, i pretended to be someone i wasnt to put a barrier up, so nobody would ever get close enough to hurt me like so many others had done before.., and that barrier no longer exists, in august it will have been 2 years since we met, and fell in love, and in the 21 years ive been on this earth, these 2 years have been the only happy ones i can remember, i know some guys say this just to look cute, or caring, but i really do owe my life to aquila, and i will always be indebted to her for changing the path ive walked, she met me when i was a nobody, she told me she loved me when i was a nobody.., now (without blowing my own trumpet), am amungst a group of some of the best skinners in the world, im finnishing my education, and im going to make something of myself, get over my fears and spend the rest of my life happy with this one woman who made such a difference in my life, its soppy but true, there really a person on this earth you can completely gel with, and be true to, but you need to make sure that trust is there, because i beleive now trust is a major factor in any relationship, the way things are with mine is that most of the time, were quite far from each other, but its working, because we truly love each other and we both know we would never do anything to jeapordise that bond, so i want to tell anyone who reads this, no matter how much your lifes been fucked up, no matter how much youve ben hurt, dont block everyone out, because in doing so you could be loosing the chance to find your soulmate.

i found mine, well, she found me, and i will love aquila always.
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Old 12th January 2003, 01:21   #8
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Do you know the tale of the Prince with the golden ball? I can't remember its real title... anyway, raydream: Do you have your own golden ball, or are you sharing Aquila's? Think about it.

You're a brave kid. =)

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Old 12th January 2003, 01:23   #9
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i found mine, well, she found me, and i will love aquila always.
:*) I don't quite how to reply to that. I've gone all mushy and warm feeling inside. True, we've hard rough bits, but I'm so glad I've made such a positive impact in your life RD, and I only hope that you continue on to do more wonderful things. For I know you can do anything you put your mind to. (K)(L)

[edit] to jaz, I think RD has his own ball (even though I'm not familiar with that story) We have very different career goals and have to go about achieving them in different ways. I personally know that what RD is working to achieve now has always been a dream of his, long before he met me. I think I just gave him a nudge in the right direction and reminded him that life is worth living and that dreams are worth aiming for. [/edit]


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Old 12th January 2003, 01:25   #10
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wow. someday I hope to love someone as much as you love aquila. Right now, it's hard to trust anyone.
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Old 12th January 2003, 01:27   #11
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Holy jeez dude, when I was reading that, all I could think was "this is movie worthy". You could write a script about your life dodging gangs and then meeting this angel of a girl with whom you lie to just b/c you really love her. So now, the bulk of the story takes place while you are balancing keeping your g/f in the dark about the truth and trying not to get capped by your local gangs. Then, in a climactic ending, some chain of events has brought the two together and you end up telling her the truth while getting [insert bad gang situation here] at the same time. She is shocked, but all she can do is throw herself at you saying over and over again, "I don't care". [Insert mushy part here] and whallah, the conclusion occurs after you get out of the hospital or whatever and end up moving to a better neighborhood, OR actually end up being respected by the gangs.

No joking, that would be a damn good movie/novel.
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Old 12th January 2003, 01:30   #12
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except that he told me just before my biochemistry final (NOT good timing on his part), so I was really pissed off for a while oh well, artistic licence will do.


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Old 12th January 2003, 01:31   #13
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im not too fond of the gangs here, a few of my friends have been murdered for no reason, those i find to painfull to go into, and its taken a while to get over them, either way, when i leave this place, i will be happier as a whole.
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Old 12th January 2003, 01:32   #14
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have you ever been in a relationship, where you started to think that you didnt love your partner, but you carried on anyway because you didnt want to hurt their feelings?,
sort of, i think this happened with my ex-girlfriend, not from my part, but from hers..... we were together for 2 months, but then she broke up, for the exact reasons you state above

how did it end, well - we're still best friends, and talk to each other every day, for hours actually, in many ways we need each other, its sometimes hard for me tho' as i still love her very much, but she knows, and we are very honest to eachother, so we've been able to work it out. And i rather have her as a friend, than not have her at all.
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Old 12th January 2003, 01:33   #15
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except that he told me just before my biochemistry final, so I was really pissed off for a while oh well, poetic licence would have to do.
like i said, i'll never forget the consequences of lying to the woman i can now no longer live without.
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like i said, i'll never forget the consequences of lying to the woman i can now no longer live without.
It's okay now though, because everything worked out and I still got into the grad school of my choice I'd much rather have my love in my life over a few % points on an exam.


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Old 12th January 2003, 01:43   #17
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im not the gang type., so im not "down" with all that "family" bussiness that goes with gangs..

but regaurdless.., I'd die for you, aquila.
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Old 12th January 2003, 11:33   #18
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Neko is now banned from writing anything sweet anymore, because tears are running down my face.

You two are so sweet! And I'm kidding, and you know it. So sweet. It's special. You have more than once reaffirmed my belief that true love does exist. (Both of 'yas )

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