Memorial To Robert Jordan

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I spoke to him nearing a year ago now for the first time.

He was a cheery guy most of the time and he had a good heart, he was a great guy.

We would talk for hours upon hours each day and in the last few months of his life he would be depressed and low as he felt that he had no friends and that nobody cared about him at all.

The day he left was the day I last spoke to him. His parents were concerned about him being missing on Tuesday night and only late Saturday night / early Sunday morning had they discovered that Robert ended his life by jumping off a parking garage.

I spoke to his sister and at the moment they want to know about what could have led Robert to kill himself so I am giving them any information that they need so they can one day make sence of why he decided to end his life so early, at 17.

At church today I prayed for Roberts safe return, I'm not really a religious person at all but I prayed and I felt that God was on my side and that I shouldn't be so darn anti religious.

I came home to have an email in my account reading, "Robert is dead. Please can you email me any conversations you had with Robert the day that he left?????"

I froze and I sent another email back immeditaley asking how. I then later went to speak to Roberts dad's cell phone who was very sad and wanted me to ring the home phone so I could talk to the family but having only £4.30ish credit, my mobile would not allow it.

I am sad that people such as Robert can be so lost and crying so desperately for help and people just walking by ignoring the cry for help or just not bothering to notice at all.

Robert being gay also put a stress on him making him feel that he would not be accepted by his family and by friends which made him retract from people.

Robert, rest in peace. I hope that wherever you are, whether you are in the comfort of gods arms or you are happy elsewhere, I and others will remember your spirit forever...

R.I.P 1985 - 2002