I was thinking of suicide a while ago
My life just went totaly wrong, i failed my tests in school, my girlfriend broke up, i lost my job, i was close to loosing my appartment, some of my friends stop calling me etc....
So i went into a depression, and i realy just wanted to make my life end, Just got this idea into my head that i was a total failure - so what was the point
I told some of my close friends how i was feeling, and they just couldn't understand me, they all told me that i had the coolest life, i had tried so many things, and been so many places, and had so many cool friends - so how i could i possibly feel like that.... but they couldn't convince me about it.
So one night when things realy was looking bad, and i just felt like jumping out the window (i live on the 5th floor) i sat down and reevaluated my life..... i made this plan for the next ten years of what i want to do with my life
Im still at university studying japanese and econmics, but failing all my tests, but im applying for jobs in tokyo right now - and i will go there to live for a year in september - to learn and speak the language flewently - then i will go home, finish my education - work as hard as hell for 5-6 years in some office, which will pay alot when i finish my thesis, live as cheap as i can, save up atleast 200.000 USD. And then i will open my own diveshop somewhere on an island in the pacific - just a small cozy one - hire one or two other dive instructers..... and just live a life I know i will enjoy.... and that keeps me going right now