Originally posted by Smeggle
maybe if you stop looking for someone to see you as 'special' you will find some one who does think your Special.
That's the problem.
I've tried looking, I've tried not looking.
I've tried being myself, I've tried being other people (I was mildly schitzophrenic for a short period of time).
I've tried being good academically, I've learned card tricks and origami, and I've tried to party (that was a complete failure -- I hate loud noises and don't like being surrounded by people).
I've searched all over the Internet, my job, my high school, my university, and I've come up with no one in the least bit compatible with me.
I've tried to stop thinking about it, but when you spend all of your time alone, it doesn't help. I've tried being with groups, but groups of 4+ people give me headaches from all the different conversations that are going on. And I have no one who I can relate to in my area to spend time with anyway. I'm unable to talk with complete strangers in most public situations.
I fidget constantly, I can't keep my hands still under any circumstances.
I am always debating with myself whether I'm not special enough, or whether I'm too special, too unique, to ever find someone who is anything like me.
OK, I think I've had my daily dose of self-pity. I'm going to return to my more stable self.