Hello,
This collection of presets for milkdrop 2 beta represents countless hours of time intoxicated on various substances, amphetamines being my favorite. I was creating (or remixing, whatever you prefer) these files up until the time I went into a rehabilitation treatment center for chemical dependency, namely prescription amphetamines, methamphetamines, marijuana and alcohol. I didn't credit anyone with the code they created. I often wonder how many preset authors are now not with us today. Sometime ago, I realized that for those minutes and hours and days I spent near overdose tripping on milkdrop would be for nothing if I didn't share them. Maybe I should have deleted them. I have been off drugs for 9 months now. I wish I could say I am happy now. I'm not loaded and crying in my room as I watch the sun rise for the second, third, or fourth time, unable to participate in society, but the scars of my addiction run deep. Addiction took me from a happy twelve year-old to a damaged and slowly recovering twenty-six year-old. I am slowly rebuilding relationships with my family. I found out after treatment that I have a son. I get to see him occasionally, and it hurts, but it's for the best for now. I can barely listen to the same music without being triggered to use. Maybe someday I will be happy, for now I just don't get high, every day, no matter what. Even though I really want to. I hope I included everything you need to enjoy my presets.
I dedicate this collection to all the addicts out there still suffering.
There is help, there is hope, you just have to reach out.
Sincerely,
Desperately,
Fondly,
Sadly,
LuxXx
This collection of presets for milkdrop 2 beta represents countless hours of time intoxicated on various substances, amphetamines being my favorite. I was creating (or remixing, whatever you prefer) these files up until the time I went into a rehabilitation treatment center for chemical dependency, namely prescription amphetamines, methamphetamines, marijuana and alcohol. I didn't credit anyone with the code they created. I often wonder how many preset authors are now not with us today. Sometime ago, I realized that for those minutes and hours and days I spent near overdose tripping on milkdrop would be for nothing if I didn't share them. Maybe I should have deleted them. I have been off drugs for 9 months now. I wish I could say I am happy now. I'm not loaded and crying in my room as I watch the sun rise for the second, third, or fourth time, unable to participate in society, but the scars of my addiction run deep. Addiction took me from a happy twelve year-old to a damaged and slowly recovering twenty-six year-old. I am slowly rebuilding relationships with my family. I found out after treatment that I have a son. I get to see him occasionally, and it hurts, but it's for the best for now. I can barely listen to the same music without being triggered to use. Maybe someday I will be happy, for now I just don't get high, every day, no matter what. Even though I really want to. I hope I included everything you need to enjoy my presets.
I dedicate this collection to all the addicts out there still suffering.
There is help, there is hope, you just have to reach out.
Sincerely,
Desperately,
Fondly,
Sadly,
LuxXx
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